After the run, a woman who ran along side of me much of the way, complimented me on my steady stride and even pace. I was truly flattered.
I am still flying high. Wendy thought it is the kicked up endorphins and I believe it. My metabolism got a kick in the head. I love it! But I think the total of four packs of Accel Gel which contains protein, carbs and caffiene is contributing; especially the caffiene.
John who is six foot probably weights 150 or so, burned over 2,000 calories running 13.1 miles today; that's a full days worth of calories.
It was a fabulous day. I am happy and enjoying my life. I love where I live, so close to my friends and activities. Finally, I'm alive.
Oh and my ex-partner but still very good friend is happy with her new love. And I'm geniunely glad and happy for them.
No, I'm not feeling sorry, that I have no one special in my life. I had a fabulous love last summer. I will treasure the memories for eternity. But now, I don't know, I think I'm in a place where I am just kicking back, loving all my activities and the time I spend with my friends. I'm a happy free spirit in love with life.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Brazil and Ethanol
85% gas and 15% ethanol and Flex Fuel cars by Chevrolet. But oil is a brith right in the USA. The USA says there is a large demand for very hug vehicles so they build them. Same fuel economy as 20 years ago. USA keep saying fuel is no problem. If oil got $100. a gallon it would bring the USA auto industry to a stop
In Brazil 25% Ethanol in every gallon of gas and all cars are Flex cars with cmean they can run auto by sensor ethanol or gas. Brazil biggest industry is sugar cane and nothing is wasted of the crop.. sugar is producted and ethanol. Next year Brazil will be fuel independent for everything will run on ethanol. Brazil learned from the oil energy crisis in the 1970's.
It's a crisis NOW and the USA needs to move beyond our fuel dependency. GM is talking a 300 mile range fuel cell technology; but it's decade within reach.
How about making fuels from wheat stalls. Bush "American is addicted to oil". USA is years behind the rest of the world because, personally, I think the Bush dynasty is in cahoots with the Saudis. It feels to me that American is not addicted to oil; but that the Bush Dynasty is addicted to the Middle East! Ironically, the Saudis have us over a barrel; an oil barrel!
The USA would rather spend 17 billion dollars in Iraq. Bush needs to tend to his own's country's needs. Our country is being pasted up by other super powers such as Japan and China and we are beginning to look at as stubborn backwater fools.
BP only advertises that they are doing their best to reduce our independence on foreign oil; but are they really? BP used to stand for British Petroleum now they say it stands for Beyond Petroleum. Gee! British Petroleum, what ever happened to American Oil? Is anything American anymore? Amazing isn't it?
In my opinion the American auto industry must be in cahoots with the big oil companies. Maybe they just say American demands super sized vehicles. Listen, the general public is easily persuaded. The American Auto industries pushes big equates to manliness.
What slays me is how gullible the America people are. We like the government and anyone else, even Rush Limbaugh to THINK for us. We need to think and read between the lines. Sems we are in capable of reading, listening and evaluating things for ourselves. We can't seem to use common sense. The government/auto industry/ big oil companies tell us that it would cost more to start up ethnaol factories or refineries in this country. My opinon: Bullshit! The ethanol factories in Brazil or small, boilers, strainers. Use common sense people. It's a simple computerized mechanism in cars that senses fuel or total ethanol that is going to be burned. Wake up! We are being burned, by our own. I think they call that self destruction!
We better get our shit together!
Why does American talk fuel cell cars which will be available in the next ten years....think people. Just maybe government, auto and oil industry are in cahoots? Hello?
Their are enough farmers in this country growing corn etc., that right now we could be foreign oil independence. But, you know what, the farmers in this country are independent; they are not big industry. But, you know, if someone was really smart a big corporation would hire farmers under contract to buy their grains and make ethanol. It could be done easily enough.
In Brazil 25% Ethanol in every gallon of gas and all cars are Flex cars with cmean they can run auto by sensor ethanol or gas. Brazil biggest industry is sugar cane and nothing is wasted of the crop.. sugar is producted and ethanol. Next year Brazil will be fuel independent for everything will run on ethanol. Brazil learned from the oil energy crisis in the 1970's.
It's a crisis NOW and the USA needs to move beyond our fuel dependency. GM is talking a 300 mile range fuel cell technology; but it's decade within reach.
How about making fuels from wheat stalls. Bush "American is addicted to oil". USA is years behind the rest of the world because, personally, I think the Bush dynasty is in cahoots with the Saudis. It feels to me that American is not addicted to oil; but that the Bush Dynasty is addicted to the Middle East! Ironically, the Saudis have us over a barrel; an oil barrel!
The USA would rather spend 17 billion dollars in Iraq. Bush needs to tend to his own's country's needs. Our country is being pasted up by other super powers such as Japan and China and we are beginning to look at as stubborn backwater fools.
BP only advertises that they are doing their best to reduce our independence on foreign oil; but are they really? BP used to stand for British Petroleum now they say it stands for Beyond Petroleum. Gee! British Petroleum, what ever happened to American Oil? Is anything American anymore? Amazing isn't it?
In my opinion the American auto industry must be in cahoots with the big oil companies. Maybe they just say American demands super sized vehicles. Listen, the general public is easily persuaded. The American Auto industries pushes big equates to manliness.
What slays me is how gullible the America people are. We like the government and anyone else, even Rush Limbaugh to THINK for us. We need to think and read between the lines. Sems we are in capable of reading, listening and evaluating things for ourselves. We can't seem to use common sense. The government/auto industry/ big oil companies tell us that it would cost more to start up ethnaol factories or refineries in this country. My opinon: Bullshit! The ethanol factories in Brazil or small, boilers, strainers. Use common sense people. It's a simple computerized mechanism in cars that senses fuel or total ethanol that is going to be burned. Wake up! We are being burned, by our own. I think they call that self destruction!
We better get our shit together!
Why does American talk fuel cell cars which will be available in the next ten years....think people. Just maybe government, auto and oil industry are in cahoots? Hello?
Their are enough farmers in this country growing corn etc., that right now we could be foreign oil independence. But, you know what, the farmers in this country are independent; they are not big industry. But, you know, if someone was really smart a big corporation would hire farmers under contract to buy their grains and make ethanol. It could be done easily enough.
Create My Day!
I did it! I created my day!
Have you ever watched "What The Bleep Do We Know?".
It started last night while thinking about the half marathon race today that I was going to do. I was in control. I was calm, my stomach was fine, my body felt great. I was ready.
I wished for the wind to come from the East to push me toward the finish line on the second half of the run. Guess what? Was it synchronity, wishful thinking. The spirit guides were with me on this one!
Heading out from the start on the way to park when I felt the wind in my face I knew it! It was just what I dreamed of; wished for.
Wind in the face downhill; wind pushing my back up hill!
You guys rock!
I feel good! No wear and tear at all!
You guys rock!
Okay, guys! I got a bigger challenge this time. I want her back in my life. Yes, I do. I know she's difficult, head strong, stubborn...adorable, brilliant and lovable. I want her back!
Just maybe loving is hard for her. Just maybe nothing ever lasted very long. A restless soul this one.
I want to love her! Do you hear me I want her in my life. And I don't mean one-sided. Just be caring about her. I want her touch. Hearted connected.
I can't and I won't let her go. I can't get the image of her out of my mind. I see her before me. She stirs my heart this one. I can't let her go.
Okay, I don't want to let her go.
She's perfect to me.
I am one nut case!
She cares for me, I know she does. She was good for me and I for her. We got afraid.
This time we keep our spaces. Our distance.
God, I hope she doesn't read this.
I know there is her reality to all of this...no, I don't want to hear it or face it..........I can't hear you......
Have you ever watched "What The Bleep Do We Know?".
It started last night while thinking about the half marathon race today that I was going to do. I was in control. I was calm, my stomach was fine, my body felt great. I was ready.
I wished for the wind to come from the East to push me toward the finish line on the second half of the run. Guess what? Was it synchronity, wishful thinking. The spirit guides were with me on this one!
Heading out from the start on the way to park when I felt the wind in my face I knew it! It was just what I dreamed of; wished for.
Wind in the face downhill; wind pushing my back up hill!
You guys rock!
I feel good! No wear and tear at all!
You guys rock!
Okay, guys! I got a bigger challenge this time. I want her back in my life. Yes, I do. I know she's difficult, head strong, stubborn...adorable, brilliant and lovable. I want her back!
Just maybe loving is hard for her. Just maybe nothing ever lasted very long. A restless soul this one.
I want to love her! Do you hear me I want her in my life. And I don't mean one-sided. Just be caring about her. I want her touch. Hearted connected.
I can't and I won't let her go. I can't get the image of her out of my mind. I see her before me. She stirs my heart this one. I can't let her go.
Okay, I don't want to let her go.
She's perfect to me.
I am one nut case!
She cares for me, I know she does. She was good for me and I for her. We got afraid.
This time we keep our spaces. Our distance.
God, I hope she doesn't read this.
I know there is her reality to all of this...no, I don't want to hear it or face it..........I can't hear you......
Don't You Know?
I hope I see you this evening; I would rather, then not. I want to know how work is going and tell you about my friend L's bosses getting fired.
I want you to go bicycling with me this summer and maybe kayaking.
Going to places we have gone together is tough. I mean tough. So be nice to me and help me out..meet me half way. Ask me questions. Sit next to me. Give me signs that you still care.
Forget and touch my leg when you sit next to me, or my hand. Let me love you!
I loved loving you, don't you know?
What we had was special, deep and meaningful.
I saw a sweetness in you...like no other. I touched your heart and held it close.
I wished you there you know, when I met you. I wished for you. I dreamed of you, saw you and knew it.
It only took me a little while to fall. You were loney so was I. You made the ache go away. We may be apart, separate but I still feel connected and think of you all the time..every day.
If thinking is wishing..then you'll come back again. We'll do it different. Just you and me, no one else will know.
Why do you say you don't do relationships..I don't understand. You're still with this one... or was that a dating? Help me to understand.
You are brilliant and I want to learn more. I shouldn't really go tonight, I'll be looking for you. I hang onto your every word because it's hope to my heart.
I wouldn't go but I want to touch base; you know.
It's just being around them makes me think of you and how I miss you.
I want you to go bicycling with me this summer and maybe kayaking.
Going to places we have gone together is tough. I mean tough. So be nice to me and help me out..meet me half way. Ask me questions. Sit next to me. Give me signs that you still care.
Forget and touch my leg when you sit next to me, or my hand. Let me love you!
I loved loving you, don't you know?
What we had was special, deep and meaningful.
I saw a sweetness in you...like no other. I touched your heart and held it close.
I wished you there you know, when I met you. I wished for you. I dreamed of you, saw you and knew it.
It only took me a little while to fall. You were loney so was I. You made the ache go away. We may be apart, separate but I still feel connected and think of you all the time..every day.
If thinking is wishing..then you'll come back again. We'll do it different. Just you and me, no one else will know.
Why do you say you don't do relationships..I don't understand. You're still with this one... or was that a dating? Help me to understand.
You are brilliant and I want to learn more. I shouldn't really go tonight, I'll be looking for you. I hang onto your every word because it's hope to my heart.
I wouldn't go but I want to touch base; you know.
It's just being around them makes me think of you and how I miss you.
One Down and One to Go!
What a great run! I finished 13.1 miles in 2 hours and 15 minutes. I was flying high! I had energy down to the finish line. I'm tired but excited! My endorphins are rocking!
A fabulous day with fabulous friends friend. There was about ten of us to ran ahd half marathon and about the same number that cheered us on. What a great bunch! The wind beneath my wings!
Tonight, L Word at K's. I'm tired but going T&J will be there too. I think I'll get there after 7:30 are round about then.
What a day! What a fabulous good! And I looked good!
I may never match with a special someone, I don't even care. I have enough love for me today for two people.
Guess I'm in my own category, most people my age or not at all like me. Kristi, says and I love it, they are the typical fifties and not at all like you. Now, she's the wind beneath my wings. She's the one that say I'm hot and quit the catch.
You know what, either there is a god are we create our own reality and environment. I needed someone like her to boost my ego...and here she is. She's 32 and we are good friends.
Okay, on April 9th is another half marathon...I'm ready baby, bring it on.
No, I won't do a full marathon. It's not necessary. That's twice the distance that I did today. No! Don't even think it!
I just want to stay fit and trim not half kill myself. Besides, I enjoy swimming, bicycling, yoga and the weight machines. I'm good with running the half-marathon.
So, one down and one to go on April 9th. Then bicycling rides will start up.
A fabulous day with fabulous friends friend. There was about ten of us to ran ahd half marathon and about the same number that cheered us on. What a great bunch! The wind beneath my wings!
Tonight, L Word at K's. I'm tired but going T&J will be there too. I think I'll get there after 7:30 are round about then.
What a day! What a fabulous good! And I looked good!
I may never match with a special someone, I don't even care. I have enough love for me today for two people.
Guess I'm in my own category, most people my age or not at all like me. Kristi, says and I love it, they are the typical fifties and not at all like you. Now, she's the wind beneath my wings. She's the one that say I'm hot and quit the catch.
You know what, either there is a god are we create our own reality and environment. I needed someone like her to boost my ego...and here she is. She's 32 and we are good friends.
Okay, on April 9th is another half marathon...I'm ready baby, bring it on.
No, I won't do a full marathon. It's not necessary. That's twice the distance that I did today. No! Don't even think it!
I just want to stay fit and trim not half kill myself. Besides, I enjoy swimming, bicycling, yoga and the weight machines. I'm good with running the half-marathon.
So, one down and one to go on April 9th. Then bicycling rides will start up.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
I'll Be A Winner!
It's a sunny day and I have great friends..what more can I ask for. No the matching is not panning out; well, not so far...but that's okay. Besides the only plus is the sex (sometimes that's good; sometimes - who knows?) and I would probably love her more than she loves me and I would have to do the things she wanted and give up at least 50% (more like 80%) of my freedom. Sounds cold? Sounds sensible to me. I'm not meant to be in a relationshp anyway.
I'm not good in relationships anyway. I have found that poeple only love you best when they are in complete control of me.
I just made a discovery! I believe we learn how to love by the way our mothers have loved us. Is that interesting or what? My mother was cold and self-serving. My father was there but not there and only there to punish and ridicule.
So for me, I believe love is conditional. If I do things your way, then you will love me; if I don't then you won't love me. It's exactly how it was with my mother. The woman controlled me by manipulated and used me to serve her own needs.
I was mostly alone as a kid. We lived way out in the country with no close neighbors. So, relating to friends is hard at times. Sometimes I worry more than I need to. I know deep within I'm a little too sensitive. I'm not needy; however, but find comfort in my aloneness. I can control my surroundings when I'm alone. It's safe! But sometimes I need to be held...I fight that feeling off...but my heart aches on.
I wasn't going to go out tonight because of the half marathon tomorrow morning. Staying home is safe. But, now I am going. I hope it takes my mind off the run.
I know that I will be find tonight and tomorrow morning.
Tomorrow morning I will be flying high....spirituality. My spiritual guides will glide me along. They will be the wind that is slightly pushing at my back. I'll fly around the muny circlepass the spectators and K's camera. My spirit guides will left me up and carry me toward the west bound hills.
I'll fly high like I did when I was a kid. My body almost moving faster then my feet.
I will look good; feel good, be fast and smooth without pain with my spirit guides gently pushing me. I'll be a winner! I'll be a winner in my own class.
Hey with great friends surrounding me and cheering for me...I'm already a winner!
I'll be a winner in my own class because truly there is no one else like me. I'll be fine, I'm beautiful..
I'm a winner already!
I'm not good in relationships anyway. I have found that poeple only love you best when they are in complete control of me.
I just made a discovery! I believe we learn how to love by the way our mothers have loved us. Is that interesting or what? My mother was cold and self-serving. My father was there but not there and only there to punish and ridicule.
So for me, I believe love is conditional. If I do things your way, then you will love me; if I don't then you won't love me. It's exactly how it was with my mother. The woman controlled me by manipulated and used me to serve her own needs.
I was mostly alone as a kid. We lived way out in the country with no close neighbors. So, relating to friends is hard at times. Sometimes I worry more than I need to. I know deep within I'm a little too sensitive. I'm not needy; however, but find comfort in my aloneness. I can control my surroundings when I'm alone. It's safe! But sometimes I need to be held...I fight that feeling off...but my heart aches on.
I wasn't going to go out tonight because of the half marathon tomorrow morning. Staying home is safe. But, now I am going. I hope it takes my mind off the run.
I know that I will be find tonight and tomorrow morning.
Tomorrow morning I will be flying high....spirituality. My spiritual guides will glide me along. They will be the wind that is slightly pushing at my back. I'll fly around the muny circlepass the spectators and K's camera. My spirit guides will left me up and carry me toward the west bound hills.
I'll fly high like I did when I was a kid. My body almost moving faster then my feet.
I will look good; feel good, be fast and smooth without pain with my spirit guides gently pushing me. I'll be a winner! I'll be a winner in my own class.
Hey with great friends surrounding me and cheering for me...I'm already a winner!
I'll be a winner in my own class because truly there is no one else like me. I'll be fine, I'm beautiful..
I'm a winner already!
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