Bush is going to try to get every cent he can for his military industrial machine corporate money mongers in these next two years.
Bush who is in cahoots with a few big businesses is working for them not the ordinary American tax payers. He has already went through all the tax revenue and is now cutting into more ways to deplete the tax payers social services.
In other words, you are not getting any benefits back from the tax you pay! Halliburton, KBR, Merck, Titan, CACI and many other companies are. Enron got tax breaks and cover ups.. and K. Lay is probably hidden away some where safely spending the 401K money he robbed from his employees.
Through A Texas lobbyist Schumer, the government Rich Perry cut a deal with Merck to have all 9 year old girls in Texas vaccinated for HPV (a type of STD) that can cause cervical cancer. I say why not encouraged abstinence or protect sex. But, that wouldn't get Merck (and probably the state government a portion) a huge tax payer provided profit. The series of three shots are very expensive..possibly one hundred dollars a shot. If the state supplements the cost.. you pay. The state is making the shots mandatory (required) was the word that the Bloomberg article used. Of course people can opt out stating religious beliefs.
But you know the state will encourage the shots strongly so Merck can make lots of money. Also, in the Bloomberg article the government was paraphrase as stated that giving the vaccinations could save the state billions of dollars in the future. Not one word was stated expressing concerns for young women's health, only saving the state money. But, not one word was state either about giving Merck the opportunity to make billions of dollars; however, that's a given.
Any American with an ounce of common sense realizes that the old scam is about making money for Merck (and in my opinion I am sure that the state house personnel are getting their kick backs in shares of the huge profits.)
Is this exploitation at best? This is greed expressed in the highest form! War for profit! Vaccinations of female children for profit! It is very apparent to me that big business and your state and federal government are strictly in it for the money.
Who knows if this vaccination is not fake! I do I know it's nothing but saline solution or something else that can be pumped into a human system without contamination. Truthfully, I doubt if the drug company, or state or federal governments even worry about child safety.
The drug was just developed....so are these young women the "laboratory rats" in this case? I wonder being the feminist that I am that if little boys were involved would they be doing this. History, from the beginning of time, has always shown that females seemed be more dispensable then males.
What are the long term results? What if babies are born deformed such as in the thalidomide drug (dispensed on pregnant women to prevent miscarriages.. the babies were born deformed).
What if the girls end up getting cancer anyway.. or are more prone to get the cancer because of the drug.
I feel that HRC and other Human Rights organizations should step in. Where is Gloria Steinem and NOW when you need them? This is an audacity to humanities. This is an ethical obomination! This is a scam for big company profit and political kick-back.
In my opinion, once again, I feel that both parties have failed us at every level beause they are all part of the big business theft in this country. We are American tax payers are being robbed! Blantantly robbed of our civil rights, of our tax money, of our good paying jobs, of our social benefits, of our unions that gave up the good paying jobs and of our dignity.
But, the problem is, we only get promised from the Demorcatic party and then excuses. The Demcratic party is for big business too. So, in my opinion, we the average American citizen do not have any prepresentation at the state or federal level.
Well, one of these day, when there are all poor people in this country with out decent jobs, then the government and CEO's will decide to change things for us. What is happening now is that we are being nickled and dimed and will continue to be nickle and dimed until we are drained of all diginity and humility and live on the streets.
Tax payers or nothing but peons to take advantage of by poeple in power. What if every American refused to pay their taxes.. They can't put us all in jail. There would be no tax profits for state and federal to blow because the rich and big business do not pay taxes and are allowed by our government to establish tax shelters off shore.
Unbelievable! People we are being ripped off! Thirty years ago or less employers or CEO's might have made twice as much as their employees; not it's four hundred times as much!
Now, go out there and have a nice day knowing that you are fast slipping out of the middle class you thought you were in. Aren't you more in debt? Aren't your credit cards max'd out - all five or more of them? Aren't you living one month away from homelessness and poverty if tomorrow you should lose your job? Or one or two of your three jobs you are required to have these days to even try to make ends meet?
Bush and his greedy cronies are oblivious to this or they realize it and don't care! Truth be told they don't care. The republican don't even try to make you believe they care; the democrates still do somewhat! That is until after they are elected but then nothing gets done. I think they are out numbered. There are thirty-three thousand lobbyist in D. C. alone in make votes deals and profit deals with politicans. How can they resist? Everyone wants their time in the spot light including Rudy Giuliani (why?) for the history books I guess. Giuliani was mayor at the time of 9/11/01. He has not been a senator, or a governor but a mayor. What does he know about foreign policy? For that matter what does Obama know about foreign power.
Who has the most all around political experience? Who has been dragged before a house and senate hearing for White Water by Ken Star? I think Hillary might as well get elected; otherwise, the republican will spend the next four to eight years whatever it takes trying to smear the democrat in power.
It's all about power and money at the top at the poor and getting poorer tax payers cost.
This government and it's greedy members need to wake up before they have another three world economy HERE.
Who will help us out? We are in hock to foreign countries already and way over our heads. If lenders who pull out of us we would be buried. But, in today's reality, people in power are more worried about today and filling their pockets. Just as with green house gases warnings after warning.. they will do nothing but let the air dirtiers and non-evirnonmentalist continue to destroy the planet.
There is no conscious, the ethics and soon to be.. no hope
read about Buse and his plans in Reuters..
http://ca.today.reuters.com/news/newsArticle.aspx?type=topNews&storyID=2007-02-05T151105Z_01_N04364712_RTRIDST_0_NEWS-USA-BUDGET-COL.XML
Please stay in formed, read alot and then draw your own conclusions..
Monday, February 05, 2007
Another fine day..
but very cold! Although I had a good seven miles run while the sunshine lasted. All in all I was not cold. Two pairs of gloves, hat, three tops, double socks and tights. The Temperature was a blustering 18 degrees with 7 degrees wind chill.
I ran pass the Artist Guild Society and picked up a pamphlet. I want to sketch live models who are nude there. My friend says anyone can attend that there are usually artist at all levels.
I walked around and saw many talents works of art. I saw a wonderful oil painting of a nude for $700. I think maybe I have done about equally as well sketching only not that large of canvas (or paper). The eyes were better than my work. Eyes are hard to get the correct depth and expressions. Eyes are the windows to the soul. I felt I could have done that painting...so maybe I'll try it one day soon. There is a lovely model in a book ...her eyes look directly into my soul. She's a beautiful women.
I had rather magical moments today. One was when I was ready to leave and I glanced at the cell phone clock and it was 11:11 AM. After I returned home and was removing my phone from my pocket I saw that the time was 1:11 PM.. and this evening when I got home from a super bowl party and pulled my phone out of my pocket it was 11:11 PM. I consider little things such as this..magical and a signal from the spirit world and my spirit guides that they are with me.
I had a great run..is it the coffee and cinnamon ginger cookies? I found that I am flying high when I get back home. Same thing occurred on Saturday morning when I ran with my friends.. I was flying high afterwards. I love running...for a natural high. And I have recaptured that high after I didn't run for about a week because it was snowy or icy. It's amazing to me how running affects our endorphins and therefore our emotions. It's a wonderful natural happy feeling; a lifting of the spirits.
Some people are too far past the capability of working out or walking much less running. One of my friends came to the party with her partner. I don't even want to try to guess how much she weights but she can't see straight down and tripped over bags someone left on the floor by the door. She went flying against the huge heavy dinning room table and sent it moving at least twelve inches. She was down for a long time, shaken ed! She will have a scratched and bruised face that's for sure. During the party she kept putting ice on his face near her chin and was moving the ice bag to her shoulder too. She will be really hurting tomorrow. Because of her weight she cannot see directly down in front of her and her balance is off. Her knees have been giving her problems too.
I feel for her. And it makes me realize such how fortunate I really am to have the ability to run. I thank the universe for my many blessings everyday and try not to take anything for granted. Our bodies are our gifts. I am very fortunate.
I have fallen twice now while running on sidewalks. She I try to avoid them or absolutely make sure that I am looking down directly in front of me to be careful of uneven concrete slabs.
When I did fall I sprang right back up and continued running; mostly due to the embarrassment of falling. I guess I spring right back up like everyone else does when they do not want anyone to come running thinking I'm hurt. I've been so lucky and I am so appreciative for all of my blessings of well being, safe car, accident free car and me.
If I sit here long enough about 20 minutes.. I'll see 1:11 again.
I'm looking for a love. I'm looking to heal my wounded heart. I'm looking for all the love I never received.. I guess. I'm so use to being alone... I guess.
My heart is searching and waiting for her to get here. I wonder what the universe is waiting for.. just where is this perfect, available, single, understanding, cute, adorable, loving being?
And why is it taking so long.. so I can learn more along the way to be better prepared.. so I don't mess it up. She will be tender and sweet.. and she will love me and more than meet me half way. She'll adore me!
I just took a handful of vita mines so I am trying to stay in a seated position so they go down....at this point I cannot lay down. I'm eating a couple of ginger and cinnamon cookies (they're little). I hope that helps.
I ran pass the Artist Guild Society and picked up a pamphlet. I want to sketch live models who are nude there. My friend says anyone can attend that there are usually artist at all levels.
I walked around and saw many talents works of art. I saw a wonderful oil painting of a nude for $700. I think maybe I have done about equally as well sketching only not that large of canvas (or paper). The eyes were better than my work. Eyes are hard to get the correct depth and expressions. Eyes are the windows to the soul. I felt I could have done that painting...so maybe I'll try it one day soon. There is a lovely model in a book ...her eyes look directly into my soul. She's a beautiful women.
I had rather magical moments today. One was when I was ready to leave and I glanced at the cell phone clock and it was 11:11 AM. After I returned home and was removing my phone from my pocket I saw that the time was 1:11 PM.. and this evening when I got home from a super bowl party and pulled my phone out of my pocket it was 11:11 PM. I consider little things such as this..magical and a signal from the spirit world and my spirit guides that they are with me.
I had a great run..is it the coffee and cinnamon ginger cookies? I found that I am flying high when I get back home. Same thing occurred on Saturday morning when I ran with my friends.. I was flying high afterwards. I love running...for a natural high. And I have recaptured that high after I didn't run for about a week because it was snowy or icy. It's amazing to me how running affects our endorphins and therefore our emotions. It's a wonderful natural happy feeling; a lifting of the spirits.
Some people are too far past the capability of working out or walking much less running. One of my friends came to the party with her partner. I don't even want to try to guess how much she weights but she can't see straight down and tripped over bags someone left on the floor by the door. She went flying against the huge heavy dinning room table and sent it moving at least twelve inches. She was down for a long time, shaken ed! She will have a scratched and bruised face that's for sure. During the party she kept putting ice on his face near her chin and was moving the ice bag to her shoulder too. She will be really hurting tomorrow. Because of her weight she cannot see directly down in front of her and her balance is off. Her knees have been giving her problems too.
I feel for her. And it makes me realize such how fortunate I really am to have the ability to run. I thank the universe for my many blessings everyday and try not to take anything for granted. Our bodies are our gifts. I am very fortunate.
I have fallen twice now while running on sidewalks. She I try to avoid them or absolutely make sure that I am looking down directly in front of me to be careful of uneven concrete slabs.
When I did fall I sprang right back up and continued running; mostly due to the embarrassment of falling. I guess I spring right back up like everyone else does when they do not want anyone to come running thinking I'm hurt. I've been so lucky and I am so appreciative for all of my blessings of well being, safe car, accident free car and me.
If I sit here long enough about 20 minutes.. I'll see 1:11 again.
I'm looking for a love. I'm looking to heal my wounded heart. I'm looking for all the love I never received.. I guess. I'm so use to being alone... I guess.
My heart is searching and waiting for her to get here. I wonder what the universe is waiting for.. just where is this perfect, available, single, understanding, cute, adorable, loving being?
And why is it taking so long.. so I can learn more along the way to be better prepared.. so I don't mess it up. She will be tender and sweet.. and she will love me and more than meet me half way. She'll adore me!
I just took a handful of vita mines so I am trying to stay in a seated position so they go down....at this point I cannot lay down. I'm eating a couple of ginger and cinnamon cookies (they're little). I hope that helps.
Saturday, February 03, 2007
I did have a great day...
and I feel that my spirit guides were with me. Yes, the coffee and ginger and cinnamon cookies sat very well on my stomach as I ran. The caffeine high was marvelous and worked well on Friday too when I ran. Running in the sun is so good for the soul!
And the sun did shine today too. The air was frigid and the wind blustering with wind chills near zero. I had four layers of pants on and four shirts and a coat. I tied the coat around me as we four ran in the sun with our backs to the wind. I wear "stay dry" and "wick away" which keeps the moisture away from the body. Cotton is the worse thing to wear because when it gets wet it gets heavy and it doesn't breath to dry.
It was a wonderful run! I was flying high afterwards on the way to breakfast with the group of runners.
For some reason as I drove alone to the coffee house, I felt so lucky to be single with no ties or worries about keeping someone happy. Or having someone correct me or talk over me. I can get up and talk to everyone at the table and just chit chat away without worrying about leaving someone sitting alone. I can leave when I want. I can order what I want without question or guilt. The last few people I dated didn't drink..so I didn't drink. No wonder when I finally got hold of a good margarita it tastes so good and I danced and danced and didn't have to worry about leaving someone sit alone or not wanting to be there at all.
I'm not saying I wouldn't want to be in love. But, love is blind and there is always a stronger personality than the other. It's never balanced or even, is it?
If I was head over heels it would be fun. No, rather I would like to "love" and not be so crazy about someone so I can be myself and not worry about every word I say or not say.
I think I need another love in my life..a part time lover. No, I don't want to live with her. I want her to have her own agenda and we get together only about two or three times a week. Perfect! I want her to be warm and loving and hold me. I'll know if she loves me.
I don't want much...just sweet affection and my heart beating close to hers and feeling so at home when I am near her like it was meant to be. Like it feels so natural to be standing near her. Oh how I miss her. Oh well! I don't think it's merely missing what I don't have or couldn't have.. I think I just truly miss her.
I think I need someone in my life..who is very cool and loves me. If she is very busy I will understand and see her when I can.
It's the quality not necessary the quantity of time that is shared that is important.
Anyway, I had a very magical day and I prayed for it and got it. Hey, it's magical when you can run ahead of younger people and do not ache at all. I have wonderful lungs. And even if I get out of breath going up a steep hill my recovering time is fabulous. Why just within a few breaths I'm back to normal breathing! I love it!
I truly believe that I need to push myself at times to gradually expand my lung capacity. I do this when swimming and yesterday and today while running. I think I made a discovery and it's cheaper than Accel Gel. My discovery? Drinking coffee and eating ginger and cinnamon cookies about an hour before I run. I ran for an hour on Friday and today up and down hills just fine. And the weather was cold, about 20 degrees yesterday and about 18 degrees this morning and I felt wonderful.
Yes, I believe that the universe was with me and telling me that I am not ready for a constant relationship like my young friend has. Maybe I'm just a free spirit. I need air! I need to breath! I'm free to sing at the top of my lungs as I drive and listen to the radio and move my shoulders in a dancing fashion at the stoplight! It's just really wonderful to feel like you want to sing and not worry about embarrassing her or yourself. I don't have to answer to anyone! What freedom is that?
I love my life. I love my loves that are in my life. But, I have this hunger. I want a certain someone I think. a certain someone whom I met in the spring of 2004. Wow! It's been two years! Why do I keep thinking about her?
Do I keep repeat firing the same old synapses of that old record of neurotransmitters? Is that why? Do I not try to break the chain of events I keep going over? When I get a thought of her or when I miss her I should quick think about something else.
But, what is really wild is that my thoughts of her have become even more vivid! And I can feel what I felt that on that speical day.
...
And the sun did shine today too. The air was frigid and the wind blustering with wind chills near zero. I had four layers of pants on and four shirts and a coat. I tied the coat around me as we four ran in the sun with our backs to the wind. I wear "stay dry" and "wick away" which keeps the moisture away from the body. Cotton is the worse thing to wear because when it gets wet it gets heavy and it doesn't breath to dry.
It was a wonderful run! I was flying high afterwards on the way to breakfast with the group of runners.
For some reason as I drove alone to the coffee house, I felt so lucky to be single with no ties or worries about keeping someone happy. Or having someone correct me or talk over me. I can get up and talk to everyone at the table and just chit chat away without worrying about leaving someone sitting alone. I can leave when I want. I can order what I want without question or guilt. The last few people I dated didn't drink..so I didn't drink. No wonder when I finally got hold of a good margarita it tastes so good and I danced and danced and didn't have to worry about leaving someone sit alone or not wanting to be there at all.
I'm not saying I wouldn't want to be in love. But, love is blind and there is always a stronger personality than the other. It's never balanced or even, is it?
If I was head over heels it would be fun. No, rather I would like to "love" and not be so crazy about someone so I can be myself and not worry about every word I say or not say.
I think I need another love in my life..a part time lover. No, I don't want to live with her. I want her to have her own agenda and we get together only about two or three times a week. Perfect! I want her to be warm and loving and hold me. I'll know if she loves me.
I don't want much...just sweet affection and my heart beating close to hers and feeling so at home when I am near her like it was meant to be. Like it feels so natural to be standing near her. Oh how I miss her. Oh well! I don't think it's merely missing what I don't have or couldn't have.. I think I just truly miss her.
I think I need someone in my life..who is very cool and loves me. If she is very busy I will understand and see her when I can.
It's the quality not necessary the quantity of time that is shared that is important.
Anyway, I had a very magical day and I prayed for it and got it. Hey, it's magical when you can run ahead of younger people and do not ache at all. I have wonderful lungs. And even if I get out of breath going up a steep hill my recovering time is fabulous. Why just within a few breaths I'm back to normal breathing! I love it!
I truly believe that I need to push myself at times to gradually expand my lung capacity. I do this when swimming and yesterday and today while running. I think I made a discovery and it's cheaper than Accel Gel. My discovery? Drinking coffee and eating ginger and cinnamon cookies about an hour before I run. I ran for an hour on Friday and today up and down hills just fine. And the weather was cold, about 20 degrees yesterday and about 18 degrees this morning and I felt wonderful.
Yes, I believe that the universe was with me and telling me that I am not ready for a constant relationship like my young friend has. Maybe I'm just a free spirit. I need air! I need to breath! I'm free to sing at the top of my lungs as I drive and listen to the radio and move my shoulders in a dancing fashion at the stoplight! It's just really wonderful to feel like you want to sing and not worry about embarrassing her or yourself. I don't have to answer to anyone! What freedom is that?
I love my life. I love my loves that are in my life. But, I have this hunger. I want a certain someone I think. a certain someone whom I met in the spring of 2004. Wow! It's been two years! Why do I keep thinking about her?
Do I keep repeat firing the same old synapses of that old record of neurotransmitters? Is that why? Do I not try to break the chain of events I keep going over? When I get a thought of her or when I miss her I should quick think about something else.
But, what is really wild is that my thoughts of her have become even more vivid! And I can feel what I felt that on that speical day.
In a way she is with me.. in spirit? No, she is with me! I feel her soul, the wonder of her. I want to fly with her high. Iwant to watch her at the control.. and fall deeper in love and I know I would. It's just the wonder of her. It was just everything about her. It wasn't infatuation. It was magical! Pure magical! She is think wonder; this super being with a sense of calm about her and slow warm voice.. and I just fell so hard. Under her spell, I guess!
I know the universe sent her to save my life.. and she did. No, not physically, I wasn't bleeding to death or anything. although, it did feel as if my heart was bleeding out on to the floor. Her's too! she said it hurt her heart!
The spirits guide were really flying around in that room that day. I was the calmest I had ever been in my life. I studied her fact to remember it forever.
The universe was good to me and had her on discovery for me to keep in my heart. The day was beautiful. The universe set it up so I saw her again.. another beautiful day. And timing being everything was so perfect. I knew it was magical! Pure magic! There was another time before that..before I moved.. when she flew past...
The universe watches out for us and gives us many wonderful magical gifts if we allow it too. If we want it.
I got another magical gift this past fall.. on yet another beautiful day. I have always felt special and one with the spirit world on beautiful sunny days. Or when I'm traveling alone... I know they are there protecting me and watching over me.
Life is so magical.. if we allow it to me.
You I may think I want her; but, evidently the timing is not right or I'm totally off base. I always thought feeling so deep had a purpose that they were meant to me. That deep aching feelings of the heart was a magnet trying to connect you with another.
Both our hearts aches like hell that day and we both resisted knowing..the timing wasn't right I guess.
I'm here waiting..
Oh, if the universe sends me another I will understand and know it.. because she will be just like her in about the same package.
She was so cool! The way she stood. The way she looked.
If thoughts are prayers she is doing wonderfully and so is everyone in her life. She is brilliant and successful and everything she touches heals perfectly and is completed at perfection. Everyone loves her. She's an angel walking on earth.. what is not to love!
If thoughts are prayers then she knows I love her and think of her often and wish her the best and miss her and "I'm here for her!"
I no longer shy away from my feelings from others even though it would be more easy not to care at all. But, I young friend knows I love her.
I love unconditionally not expecting anything in return; but maybe I should and I am beginning to. I want that woman to love me back. I want her to need me if only for a few stolen moments.. I'm here for her. I could be her best kept secret.
If it is one thing I have learned in my life as a lesbian living in the straight world it is how to keep a secret. I can't tell you how many woman I have loved who never had a clue and only thought they were my friend and me theirs when I was so in love. Oh yes, I know how to keep a secret! And if someone asked me not to repeat something.. I won't. I am so comfortable with myself and my own security that I do not need to impress anyone with bragging stories of love or anything. I can keep a secret. She would have to trust me and she should know that she can trust me.
Life should be filled with many wonderful magical moments. Two people making love is very magical. It's a heart connection when I am with a woman. It's not just sex! It's a soul bonding. It's touching and holding a celebrating life. It's the reason spirit beings come to earth as human beings to be loved, and held and feel all those wonderful things that go along with that wonderful magical experience. Making love to a woman is the most magical, mystical, gift in life that there could possibly be. Maybe that is why I had to wait so long before I realized this... so I would truly appreciate it when I had it. I take nothing for granted.
When I make love to a woman it's the celebration of her being...the scars and the marks of what life had to deal her..it's a beautiful thing. It's as if I see her whole life before me, the aches, the struggles, the loves, the hurts. I guess it's a soul connection. It's a kind of worship to me. There laying before is this wonderful human being, a heavenly spirit in human form, with the signs of life so connected, the past, the present, maybe even some of the future. It's wonderful.
And the best love making is the silence with only the sighs to guide me.. and I love it! It is the most wonderful thing there is.. pleasing her.
I never felt that way with a man... oh I had sex and I even loved ... but it wasn't like making love to a woman.. never...
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Merk and TX want to mandatory vaccinate young girls
This infuriates me! I am livid and I don't even have a young daughter to worry about. They, Merck and Texas, want to "enforce" mandatory Gardasil vaccinations for all girls beginning as early as nine years old, teens and young women. But, cervical cancer is caused by sexual activity diseases...why not preach condom protection and abstinence instead? Gov. Rick Perry of Texas is demanding that immunizing be mandatory. HPV causes 70 percent of cervical cancer in young woman. Oh yeah, the drug company Merck has a lobbyist in the Texas state department.
Women can be tested to see if they have the HPV virus. I got tested. It caused by sexual activity. And now all these young women are on the bandwagon brainwashed thinking they need this vaccination so they never get cervical cancer. It's a convincing soft sell. The popular thing to do. Young girls think that the drug companies and the state have their best interest at heart. Sorry, to disappoint you, but Merck is in it for the sale..and the bottom line on the accounting sheet. It's a money maker for the drug company. Young girls are being victimized!
It's a forest. It's a deal between Merck who makes the vaccine and the lobbyist of Texas and the the Texas Governor, Rich Perry. You see Merck didn't get the contract in three other states who now they are pushing hard to get it in Texas.
What happens to these girls cervix as a result of taking the vaccine. It's just a money maker. Why, who is to say that the vaccine itself could not possibly cause the cancer. What happens to her cervix during pregnancy or delivery? Or as she gets older? Will her baby be deformed?
Dr. Maurie Markman... says girls as young as nine should get the vaccine and Merk is shooting for a dozen more states to make it mandatory.
Dawn Richardson says that the emergency is with Merck because they lost three states who voted it down and they want to hurry and get Texas on board (before people catch on, I say).
They said thought that due to religious or personal beliefs girls don't have to get it.
You know what I think. I think Merck will go to the schools and slip it in one day soon! They want to sell that drug and get state funding proceives or charge the parents..
Of course the report didn't say who is paying for the "mandatory" vaccination.
I think NOW should step in and the HRC. This is discrimination in reverse at best! This is experimental concentration camp activity. There has not been enough time to even test this drug as there? Are young woman taking the place of laboratory rats?
I have had this discussion with my friend who is a surgical nurse and has two daughters and she says. "No way!" will her daughters be vaccinated.
But, see, Merck pharmaceutical company wants people to think that cervical cancer is an epidemic..hell they just jiggle the stats on the research. It's another "wag the dog" treatment and conditioning; tell the people there is a real problem and then offer them a solution! Hell they are as bad as the church and the bush dynasty. Of course they are! They are all in cahoots.
Can you believe it! Tell the people it's a medical emergency and make it mandatory so we can sell our drug.. which who knows may cause birth defects or may even cause cancer itself. I'm appalled. There is no justice left. Where are the ethics? Is it all just "bottom line profits for the share holder" The hell with the possible thousands of young victims!
I"m appalled! This is on the same level as the Christian crusades.. forcing beliefs down the people's throats. Or falsely staring a war so your buddy's company can make billions off of the pain and suffering of soldiers and civilians!
These people in large corporations and government are barbaric! I'm ashamed to say I'm part of the human race!
Personally, I think there should be a mandatory injection of estrogen in all males so they stop trying to cheat and ripe people off. Yes, men should be injected mandatory so they stop starting needless wars for profit.
Just sit back and take a look at all the fighting and destruction around the world and tell me..who is starting all of this caous? It's MEN! Let's make it mandatory to pump estrogen into them. Hey, Merck could sell loads of estrogen.
Oh no! We can't take away a man's manhood. I say bull shit.. let's shoot 'em up! Who are the majority of prisoners that my tax dollar is feeding? Who are the rapists? The child molesters? The child porn sellers, the child slave buyers and sellers for sex! I say let's round them up and shoot 'em up.
And let's stop victimizing and taking advantage of women! Why do we let them get away with it! Don't decent men want to protect their wives and daughters? Women had to fight for twenty or more years to get the vote. Women still do not get paid as much as men for doing the same work. My teacher friend told me a man there where she teaches gets paid more than her. I asked why? Because he has a family? A family? Most mothers are heads of single households. fifty-one percent of all women in this country live without a man in the house.
Oh, and you can bet your last dollar that this vaccine is not free... while even if it is inexpensive the tax payer is picking up the tab and Merck is ending up with the money.. that could go for better education and decent paying jobs and efforts to increase minimum wage. This government is so totally for big business that it enough to make me ill.
Oh man, Bush will put off pulling out of Iraq so Halliburton can clean up.. and make billions more in profits...now tell me the good old boys on the hill aren't getting a kick back for setting these no bid contract up.
In the 1950 women who were pregnant were given DES so they would not miscarry. The baby girls were born with a deformed cervix.
The following excerpt is taking from a 1979 Time magazine article:
The scandal started in 1958 when Distillers Co., a huge British conglomerate known best for selling Scotch and gin, heavily advertised and sold a dangerous tranquilizer, Thalidomide, without adequately testing its effect on pregnant women. Before Distillers finally pulled the drug off the market, in 1961, some 450 tragically deformed babies were born in England, with flippers instead of arms and legs, or no limbs at all.
See the site:
http://www.fda.gov/bbs/topics/NEWS/2006/NEW01385.html
and see the following site..it will shock you
http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,920320,00.html?promoid=googlep
Read this too...................Texas Governor Orders Cervical Cancer Vaccination for Girls
By Darrell Preston
Feb. 2 (Bloomberg) -- Texas Governor Rick Perry signed an order requiring school-age girls to receive a cervical cancer vaccination, saying it would cut future medical costs for treating the disease.
Girls ages 11 and 12 would receive the human papillomavirus vaccine prior to entering the sixth grade starting in 2008, a press release put out by the Republican governor said. State health officials also would start making the vaccine immediately available to females between 9 and 21 years old.
Merck & Co.'s vaccine, Gardasil, won U.S. market clearance in June.
Requiring the vaccinations is ``responsible health and fiscal policy that has the potential to significantly reduce cases of cervical cancer and mitigate future medical costs,'' Perry said in a press release.
To contact the reporter on this story: Darrell Preston in Dallas at dpreston@bloomberg.net .
Hopeful horoscope on an icy day.
"February 3, 2007 Trusting Your GuardiansLibra Daily Horoscope:
You may sense that something akin to luck is on your side today, and you will likely recognize the benevolent hand of your many spirit guardians operating in your experience. Mundane acts that typically constitute a normal part of your daily routine can earn you surprising blessings as others acknowledge your hard work and effort. Should you find yourself in situations that feel negative, you may be pleased to discover that you can respond constructively and without resorting to hostility. The moment of recognition in which you see that you are not alone can be the perfect time to express your gratitude for all the blessings your spirit guides have bestowed upon you today"
Sure hope my spirit guides are out there in the frigid weather this morning as I attend to see how many other brave spirits in human form will be out there.
It's new terraine for running and 19 F degree temperatures with a 16 MPH wind that makes it feel like 7 F degrees. By the way, the F is for Fahrenheit..although certainly in this case the "other" word would surffice nicely. Wish me luck! And hope that my friend will be there to encourage me and take my mind off the chill! It would be great if a least six of them were there. I'm so curious to see if they will brave not really the cold but this awful wind that I hear and feel slipping through the not-so-sealed seals of my patio door. I hear a very long whistle as the gust of winds slip past the frame of the door.
Soon in about fifteen minutes I will have to get out there. I'll be bundled up with extra clothing along with me. I'll have four layers on top and two on the bottom....including shorts underneath and a hat on top. I also thought of double socks and double gloves.
Yesterday I ran six mile at least (in an hour) and the temperature was mid twenties. There was a cold Northern wind too, but I ran North and South and the trees and buildings sheltered me from the frigid wind..which I only had to run head long into one time for a short time.
I am hopeful that my spirit guides will be with me this morning allowing to sun to shine on us and allowing us to be in the meadow or blocked somehow from the wind..even if it means running up hills. A good workout will keep us warm.
I know I shouldn't complain, but my stomach is full of gass and wearing tight with a high waist (I hate high waisted pants) maked my bloated stomach feel even more full of pressure. It's because I was up at 3:00 AM drinking coffee and eating ginger and cinnamon cookies. Oh good I got up and looked at the container to see how cinnamon was spelled and burped...and that's a good thing.
Oh stomach gods please be kind to me this morning. Drinking coffee and eating these cookies worked out fine for me yesterday before I ran...what's the deal? I know, it's because I ate and then went to sleep...things do not digest well when my body is in a lateral position.
Well, it will take me about thirty minutes to get to the park...a new locate this morning. Someone said doors will be open to go inside to stay out of the wind. First, I have to find the building. This is a big park! Well, actually, it is not as large of an area as the one we normally run in.. it's just unfamiliar to me.
You may sense that something akin to luck is on your side today, and you will likely recognize the benevolent hand of your many spirit guardians operating in your experience. Mundane acts that typically constitute a normal part of your daily routine can earn you surprising blessings as others acknowledge your hard work and effort. Should you find yourself in situations that feel negative, you may be pleased to discover that you can respond constructively and without resorting to hostility. The moment of recognition in which you see that you are not alone can be the perfect time to express your gratitude for all the blessings your spirit guides have bestowed upon you today"
Sure hope my spirit guides are out there in the frigid weather this morning as I attend to see how many other brave spirits in human form will be out there.
It's new terraine for running and 19 F degree temperatures with a 16 MPH wind that makes it feel like 7 F degrees. By the way, the F is for Fahrenheit..although certainly in this case the "other" word would surffice nicely. Wish me luck! And hope that my friend will be there to encourage me and take my mind off the chill! It would be great if a least six of them were there. I'm so curious to see if they will brave not really the cold but this awful wind that I hear and feel slipping through the not-so-sealed seals of my patio door. I hear a very long whistle as the gust of winds slip past the frame of the door.
Soon in about fifteen minutes I will have to get out there. I'll be bundled up with extra clothing along with me. I'll have four layers on top and two on the bottom....including shorts underneath and a hat on top. I also thought of double socks and double gloves.
Yesterday I ran six mile at least (in an hour) and the temperature was mid twenties. There was a cold Northern wind too, but I ran North and South and the trees and buildings sheltered me from the frigid wind..which I only had to run head long into one time for a short time.
I am hopeful that my spirit guides will be with me this morning allowing to sun to shine on us and allowing us to be in the meadow or blocked somehow from the wind..even if it means running up hills. A good workout will keep us warm.
I know I shouldn't complain, but my stomach is full of gass and wearing tight with a high waist (I hate high waisted pants) maked my bloated stomach feel even more full of pressure. It's because I was up at 3:00 AM drinking coffee and eating ginger and cinnamon cookies. Oh good I got up and looked at the container to see how cinnamon was spelled and burped...and that's a good thing.
Oh stomach gods please be kind to me this morning. Drinking coffee and eating these cookies worked out fine for me yesterday before I ran...what's the deal? I know, it's because I ate and then went to sleep...things do not digest well when my body is in a lateral position.
Well, it will take me about thirty minutes to get to the park...a new locate this morning. Someone said doors will be open to go inside to stay out of the wind. First, I have to find the building. This is a big park! Well, actually, it is not as large of an area as the one we normally run in.. it's just unfamiliar to me.
too cold to run...
It's 14 degrees, feels like 2 and the wind is 12 mph! And once more it's 3:19 AM and I haven't been to sleep yet...damn that caffiene! I'm turning my 7:45 AM alarm off!
I would love to see who shows up for breakfast; however, maybe I'll skip the run in the park and go directly to breakfast.
Surely, my friends who I spoke to about running in the morning...will think it's too cold?
Anyway, I wish I was sleepy. I heard the wind howling......
To bed .. it is.. I hope I can sleep! Maybe I'll read a bit.......in bed...
I would love to see who shows up for breakfast; however, maybe I'll skip the run in the park and go directly to breakfast.
Surely, my friends who I spoke to about running in the morning...will think it's too cold?
Anyway, I wish I was sleepy. I heard the wind howling......
To bed .. it is.. I hope I can sleep! Maybe I'll read a bit.......in bed...
A Specturm..
of a board sequence or related qualities of gayness exists in society from extremely feminine men to extremely butch women. It's where life takes us from which we come from.
My friends tell me that on both coasts I would see more "mainstream" looking lesbians...feminine in other words, or more so is their dress. Personally, I like the more feminine woman.
But, I think none of the above matters, it's who we fall head-over-heels in love in with that counts. I once fell in love with a wonderful woman. I loved her totally. Everything about her from her darkest brown eyes that pierce my heart to her voice that soothes and send me stirring with emotions piling up inside and I still found it easy to talk to her. I felt her eyes on me. Why oh why did I love her so much?
She was my savior at a crucial time in my life; but I can't get her out of my mind. I think about her all the time and fantasize about her being with me..if only for stolen moments at a time. What did she do to me..so innocently. She had nothing to do with it. She had no clue until I let her know...and now I can't see her ever again..well professionally.
The psychologist told me to let it go that it was only infatuation. I told her what she wanted to hear..that I would. The psychologist was slightly strange in my thinking. She told me a couple (meaning straight I'm sure) dated and then fell in love. I told her I believe in love at first sight an idea that seems foreign to her. Personally, I don't believe in the gradual.. falling in love thing. I believe if it's right at the moment you meet them you'll feel as if you have been hit in the head by a ton of bricks...that's love! It's a sexual love..an all encompassing love. By that I mean I love everything about her. I love her body even though she may not. Her body is who she is, just as her life's experiences..everything she has gone through and yet to go through is what makes her so priceless and unique.. I love everything about her because it is who she is. I have never in my life felt this way about a man. I was born a lesbian. Oh, I've love men. There were two I had sex with and loved but I had more serious crushes on woman at the same time..and truth be told; if I could have had her.. whom I loved so much more deeply..I never would have gone back to him. But, society stinking as it is, did not allow me to even let her know how I felt about her. So, I dated him, cared about him; but was madly in love with her.. and she was on my mind when I was with him...
Love for someone is what we create in our heads? We draw mental and emotional pictures to get our needs met? Or perhaps they were sent to us to fulfill a service, complete a mission, and in time move on. Well, it seems to me that I just cannot get my stars lined up. I still love the good doctor and miss her. Since then I've fallen in love with a woman 23 years younger than myself. I loved her madly. I still care about her, even though now I understand her better from a distance, and I still care about her.
Then I fell in love with a sweet woman 33 years younger than myself..okay, common sense took over here. Her friends would think she was totally nuts and out of her head. But, there is a certain heart to heart tenderness I feel between us. She looks forward to seeing me and worries about me and I her, and I love her very much. I love when she speaks about something close to her heart and it touches me and I find myself having to put my arm slightly around her drawing her near and kissing her forehead and my heart so filled with love treasures the moment for hours after. Sometimes after a couple of margaritas while driving home I cry because I was born so soon. And when I get home I cry some more...hard last time I cried hard. But, I've even ceased to do that because of reality. I guess I'm all cried out. Now my heart just feels dull pain in those cases when I think of the sad years past..there are no more senseless, useless and needless tears to cry. I can't change time. I can only try to stay as healthy, active and as youthful as I can...because I so want a little bit of what I never had and so I pray.
It makes my heart ache if I think about it. If I think about all those wonderful young women touching and wrapping their arms around each lover and feeling free to love. And they love and look and act like women! I never saw any of that in my 20's or 30's..and in the Midwest..in my 40's I only saw butch in flannel. Yes, times where beginning to change. But, not until Ellen or Rosie did we have roll models and let's face it they are slightly butch. the L Word is about over the top...but only in fashion. Personally, I love dressing in women's boots and shoes and wearing women's jeans and sweaters, blouses and belts and jewelry. But, it's the inside of us that shows on the outside. Have you ever seen Ellen in a dress...it's a hoot!
But, I can't turn back the hands of time so no sense in crying about it. I may be cute and look youthful, but would you date up when you can date down in age? I don't get a second glance.. not at all. Hell, I did better and still do better in the heterosexual world..men dig me! No, I am not having sex with men and NO I will never go back...
No, I'm not going back to men! I enjoy making love to a woman too much. There is just such a connection..of the hearts that I love. I'm amazed at how much I love a woman's body and her mind and her heart and her sighs when I touch her and arouse her. I'm amazed. Men never did that to me at all. Oh, if only we were free to love who we love...I cheated all those men because I couldn't give back. Oh, the physical act, them touching me (I love foreplay) turned me on....but the rest of it....not so much! Their bodies never turned me on.. I could never give back... I had to force myself. If you were a guy would you like that? Oh, I know, guys don't care as long as they can get off!
I will always love women and will never go back to men...my heart would never be in it. I'm sorry but I don't believe that I have a choice. We are born the way we are born. We are spirits living as human beings visiting here on earth..sometimes we bring challenges from past lives with us.. sometimes we are merely here to have fun or to learn. I guess I'm here to learn. I keep feeling like I'm waiting for something to happen.. like it's just around the corner.. but she never gets here...it's like she's two miles away and stationary. However, far the distance I feel her in my heart...she feels me too.. I can sense it. That was her in that little plane too that flew near roof top level of my condo back then..when our heart came together. If there would not have been a glare on it, I could have looked right through the windshield at her. As it was I stood and smiled with sweet recognition. Little plane with blue striping..it was her.. I know it! I love the memory of her. My arms, my heart miss her terribly!
I'm amazed how shy I am to reach out and touch someone or hold or be held. I think it's because it means so much to me. I wish I could love the good doctor.. I wish I could make love to her.
She would think that I am totally out of my mind...totally! I must be insane. I don't know why this just keeps bugging me. Is it the repetitive synapses firing that I allow because I don't break the thought when I have it; there by perpetuating my strong love feelings for her. I have to break the cycle. But I don't want to.
I so want to be head of heels in love and in a sexual relationship with the same person...as it is now.. it's two different, totally, different people.
I need the good doctor to heal my heart.. to hold me..to take me for a ride way up in the sky. I can only imagine the magic of it..to sit so close to her.. to watch her in her glory...to feel my heart race. I fear I would cry in awe and wonder and want! Wanting her so badly! Praying she makes the slightest first move...to let me know..
I'll dream of her now.. and pray for her and want her terribly. I thought dreams came true. I thought wishes were prayers. I thought that thoughts were prayers...I'm still waiting. I want her!
My friends tell me that on both coasts I would see more "mainstream" looking lesbians...feminine in other words, or more so is their dress. Personally, I like the more feminine woman.
But, I think none of the above matters, it's who we fall head-over-heels in love in with that counts. I once fell in love with a wonderful woman. I loved her totally. Everything about her from her darkest brown eyes that pierce my heart to her voice that soothes and send me stirring with emotions piling up inside and I still found it easy to talk to her. I felt her eyes on me. Why oh why did I love her so much?
She was my savior at a crucial time in my life; but I can't get her out of my mind. I think about her all the time and fantasize about her being with me..if only for stolen moments at a time. What did she do to me..so innocently. She had nothing to do with it. She had no clue until I let her know...and now I can't see her ever again..well professionally.
The psychologist told me to let it go that it was only infatuation. I told her what she wanted to hear..that I would. The psychologist was slightly strange in my thinking. She told me a couple (meaning straight I'm sure) dated and then fell in love. I told her I believe in love at first sight an idea that seems foreign to her. Personally, I don't believe in the gradual.. falling in love thing. I believe if it's right at the moment you meet them you'll feel as if you have been hit in the head by a ton of bricks...that's love! It's a sexual love..an all encompassing love. By that I mean I love everything about her. I love her body even though she may not. Her body is who she is, just as her life's experiences..everything she has gone through and yet to go through is what makes her so priceless and unique.. I love everything about her because it is who she is. I have never in my life felt this way about a man. I was born a lesbian. Oh, I've love men. There were two I had sex with and loved but I had more serious crushes on woman at the same time..and truth be told; if I could have had her.. whom I loved so much more deeply..I never would have gone back to him. But, society stinking as it is, did not allow me to even let her know how I felt about her. So, I dated him, cared about him; but was madly in love with her.. and she was on my mind when I was with him...
Love for someone is what we create in our heads? We draw mental and emotional pictures to get our needs met? Or perhaps they were sent to us to fulfill a service, complete a mission, and in time move on. Well, it seems to me that I just cannot get my stars lined up. I still love the good doctor and miss her. Since then I've fallen in love with a woman 23 years younger than myself. I loved her madly. I still care about her, even though now I understand her better from a distance, and I still care about her.
Then I fell in love with a sweet woman 33 years younger than myself..okay, common sense took over here. Her friends would think she was totally nuts and out of her head. But, there is a certain heart to heart tenderness I feel between us. She looks forward to seeing me and worries about me and I her, and I love her very much. I love when she speaks about something close to her heart and it touches me and I find myself having to put my arm slightly around her drawing her near and kissing her forehead and my heart so filled with love treasures the moment for hours after. Sometimes after a couple of margaritas while driving home I cry because I was born so soon. And when I get home I cry some more...hard last time I cried hard. But, I've even ceased to do that because of reality. I guess I'm all cried out. Now my heart just feels dull pain in those cases when I think of the sad years past..there are no more senseless, useless and needless tears to cry. I can't change time. I can only try to stay as healthy, active and as youthful as I can...because I so want a little bit of what I never had and so I pray.
It makes my heart ache if I think about it. If I think about all those wonderful young women touching and wrapping their arms around each lover and feeling free to love. And they love and look and act like women! I never saw any of that in my 20's or 30's..and in the Midwest..in my 40's I only saw butch in flannel. Yes, times where beginning to change. But, not until Ellen or Rosie did we have roll models and let's face it they are slightly butch. the L Word is about over the top...but only in fashion. Personally, I love dressing in women's boots and shoes and wearing women's jeans and sweaters, blouses and belts and jewelry. But, it's the inside of us that shows on the outside. Have you ever seen Ellen in a dress...it's a hoot!
But, I can't turn back the hands of time so no sense in crying about it. I may be cute and look youthful, but would you date up when you can date down in age? I don't get a second glance.. not at all. Hell, I did better and still do better in the heterosexual world..men dig me! No, I am not having sex with men and NO I will never go back...
No, I'm not going back to men! I enjoy making love to a woman too much. There is just such a connection..of the hearts that I love. I'm amazed at how much I love a woman's body and her mind and her heart and her sighs when I touch her and arouse her. I'm amazed. Men never did that to me at all. Oh, if only we were free to love who we love...I cheated all those men because I couldn't give back. Oh, the physical act, them touching me (I love foreplay) turned me on....but the rest of it....not so much! Their bodies never turned me on.. I could never give back... I had to force myself. If you were a guy would you like that? Oh, I know, guys don't care as long as they can get off!
I will always love women and will never go back to men...my heart would never be in it. I'm sorry but I don't believe that I have a choice. We are born the way we are born. We are spirits living as human beings visiting here on earth..sometimes we bring challenges from past lives with us.. sometimes we are merely here to have fun or to learn. I guess I'm here to learn. I keep feeling like I'm waiting for something to happen.. like it's just around the corner.. but she never gets here...it's like she's two miles away and stationary. However, far the distance I feel her in my heart...she feels me too.. I can sense it. That was her in that little plane too that flew near roof top level of my condo back then..when our heart came together. If there would not have been a glare on it, I could have looked right through the windshield at her. As it was I stood and smiled with sweet recognition. Little plane with blue striping..it was her.. I know it! I love the memory of her. My arms, my heart miss her terribly!
I'm amazed how shy I am to reach out and touch someone or hold or be held. I think it's because it means so much to me. I wish I could love the good doctor.. I wish I could make love to her.
She would think that I am totally out of my mind...totally! I must be insane. I don't know why this just keeps bugging me. Is it the repetitive synapses firing that I allow because I don't break the thought when I have it; there by perpetuating my strong love feelings for her. I have to break the cycle. But I don't want to.
I so want to be head of heels in love and in a sexual relationship with the same person...as it is now.. it's two different, totally, different people.
I need the good doctor to heal my heart.. to hold me..to take me for a ride way up in the sky. I can only imagine the magic of it..to sit so close to her.. to watch her in her glory...to feel my heart race. I fear I would cry in awe and wonder and want! Wanting her so badly! Praying she makes the slightest first move...to let me know..
I'll dream of her now.. and pray for her and want her terribly. I thought dreams came true. I thought wishes were prayers. I thought that thoughts were prayers...I'm still waiting. I want her!
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