Friends and Lovers

It seems as if I am blogging like crazy lately. I have this blog and one at http://360.yahoo.com/mzdzim. It's therapeutic I guess!

I was playing poker this evening with my friends; of which one is my ex-partner. It's sad, the feeling of attachment I have yet; sometimes it's like we never parted. I guess you get to know a lot about someone after being with them a long time. I still feel the same hurts and isolation but I would trust her with my life; in fact, she is still my health power of attorney.

Everyone should have a health power of attorney. If you ever need surgery, especially at a Catholic hospital, it's best to have someone there like that for you. Someone who will take you there and back and take care of you as you recover. I have done this for her and would do it again; and would do it for anyone I care about.

I don't want to do it for my family though; and, if anything happens to me, do not call them. Whatever you do, never call any of my family members.

You see, my ex is quite family orientated. When we were together, she always asked me: "Did you call your mother this week?" And of course I had not, because I can't stand my mother. So then out of guilt and feelings of duty, I felt that I should call, and ended up calling my mother. It was not until my mother worked her manipulating charms on my ex and she finally saw the light.

My friend I met several months ago understood about my family issues. I like the way she thinks; how she cares about people. I like her sense of independence; I think we were more alike that what we cared to admit.
We both pulled away! I miss her.

You know what it is? I think she made me feel needed and I liked it! She would dispute this; I know. She would say that I am so wrong!