Today!

I'm changing my clothes to run in the park, then work out on weight machines, then swim, then visit Emma, then play guitar, then write, then read.

I have to work all of this pain out of my system. Wish me luck! I'm about to make a sexual move. I need to love! I need to feel the warmth, not just the hand. I need to dominate. And if she can't return love either like the last one then too, I'm moving on! I am not settling for less anymore!

And in the next relationship, I am totally being myself! No more losing myself to another. I'm better than that! I am much better than that!

It's now 11:30 PM and today I ran six miles, read, went to yoga class, played guitar till my fingers hurt and wrote some. Oh, and asked a girl out on a date!