We had the most wonderful model today at the guild. I think I fell in love. I fall in love with straight women. I wanted to make love to her. I could almost feel her skin against mine. Actually she reminded me of the woman I am seeing. It made me lonely for her. I's hard seeing a married women but I would so it again in a heart beat.

I keep trying to get it one with a particular single woman but I can't fall dir her. Well maybe i could she has nice breads. I don't know but I would try to find out. One this for sure life is very confusing.

I miss the touch of a woman! The tenderness; the sweetness!

I trust the universe will help me! I beg my spirit guides to help make my life magical.