I'm Speechless for a change

No, I have nothing to talk about, to complain about. It's a beautiful evening. I'm chilling with the windows open and watching "Hairspray".

I sang and played my guitar earlier - I love it. It brings me peace. I went to Linda's last evening for BBQ with four other women there. They saw my guitar in the back of my car. One women really wanted me to play. I should have. But I was already into the margaritas I guess and the triple sac scratches my throat. I should have drank water. Well, it was the first time there with them, so trying to be socialible. But, I think I am so much better anywhere without booze.

Next time I'm taking it and singing and playing. Hey, I can really entertain myself so maybe I can entertain someone else. Lou, my ex, likes to hear me sing. Thank god! She's my best, most honest critic. I need that! I need her in my life. So, I pray she and her partner have a safe trip with holiday weekend visiting her in-laws. Sandra went along and I'm glad.

I miss the good doctor. I was just thinking how Sandra saw her and she asked about me and Lou. "She was concerned". Sandra reported. I was lifted off the ground by five feet at least. I floated on that thought all day and more. I will love that woman forever. My own personal angel - she healed my heart probably when she thought she couldn't help me at all.

Life is magical. I love magical moments. I want tomorrow to be very magical! Well, I'm invited to a party - guess I'll go. Right now I'm tired and so enjoying my alone time. Social events are trying to me. Who else just recently said that? Oh, I know Ashley. She and I were riding the other day. I like her. She thinks like me. She does - actually. For the age difference we think a lot alike. Oh she's only 33 years younger than I am. We are great friends. She has a good head on her shoulders. She's practical. She has a great partner too.

Me, where's my partner? The universe only knows. Ezekiel, Edy, and Gorgette my soul spirits on the other side! They control my life - like I have a say! They pulled me away from Lou and put me on the M road.

Things are becoming rather convuluted. If my new friends find out - I'm toast! So, where is this all going to go? I like my new friends. I have five new friends. I have fun last night. I hope to see more of them. Well, they are trying to fix me up with Linda. I hope all ends up very well! I don't want anyone to get hurt.

So, where is this all going to go? Stay tuned! Wish me luck! Make it magical. Whenever I ask for a magical day - it turns out fantastic!

This I'll draw something now! I'm getting my second wind. I got home late last night. Thanks for helping me find my way home!

I rode my bike to the park to meet up with the running group. Then I ran with a very nice woman. Who of course, has a partner. That's okay! Maybe I need all this freedom right now.

I have a loving heart and I'm glad. I can fall in love in a New York second. Two weeks ago I fell in love with the model I drew for three hours. She was about my age. Nice body! Very nice! If they weren't real - someone did a very nice job. She was sensative. I love women who let me who they are. Who tell me what makes them tick! Pour out some heart and I'll fall in love with it. Anyway. It's not happening with Linda, because she too surface. She doesn't show me any soul. She's M's X. Now M, has some soul! She loves me. She kisses my head when she loves me. The good doctor kissed my gently too... I'll love her forever. Oh, she felt my pain. I know! Anyway!

I fall in love to easily - I fall in love to fast! I have to stop typing now because this idiot laptop is making me sweat! I see a MAC in my future!