I'll just say this...

We are falling in love..and I'm afraid. This can't go anywhere...she's married.

It's not like we are kids..we're pushing sixty. Are old habits hard to break? Lives staked upon lives...

I'm gingerly walking on this one. I may not want more than what it is...she's beginning to I think. Yes, we have moved our emotions up to a higher plane.

We're still in the closet for as I'm concerned. I'm hanging with my other friends..it's what she apparently wants. It is what it has to be. It's called freedom I think. I think we both like our lives the way they are...we'll just miss each other.

After all this time, we are still going through the motions. Why oh why, can't people be free to love who they love. What's with the forest of pretend theatrics?

Oh well, she wouldn't be happy here and I wouldn't be happy there...we'll just keep it as it is. Even though our time together goes by very fast...and then we miss each other...and look forward to the next time.

I am spiritual and believe in multiple life times. Actually, they probably run concurrently. But, I'm beginning to think..maybe I won't come back after I die for another go at another life. The men who are in power here on earth in government, business and religion are too evil and wanting to rip everyone off. I'm so tired of reading the fine print....and between the lines..it's no fun anymore.

Where are the kind hearts...the loving heart....in the gay and lesbian community perhaps? We are the ones who love one another and look out for one another.

Pollution, global warming, the shrinking middle class, the destroying of Roe vs Wade, oil mongers, war mongers for profit, greedy, gas guzzling American auto ("you'll buy what we tell you to buy" mentality) selfish evil people..are making me very tired.