You gotta love it...

"Dick Cheney is headed to Saudi Arabia to meet with it's leader, but he's nervous. Of course he is says Jan Leno, he's getting ready to meet 'the boss'". I love it!

Other hot topics: I'm in pain. Well, I rode that clunker this weekend, both days. Yes, 65 miles on Saturday and 65 miles again on Sunday. My quads are tight! But, I have rug burns between my upper thigh and cheek. Ouch! Just on the one side. Well, pedaling for a total of 12 hours is enough to rub the hell out of things. I hate that bike. I hope this heals okay and doesn't get infected. It's in a vulnerable area. But I am being careful. I've been spraying Bactine on it. And now it's drying....so when I get up and down...ouch!

I rode on the Katy Trail. It's all fine rock. Well, I did it because I was invited to ride along with someone in August from the city to wine country.

Well, that trail is going to be underwater soon. So who knows what kind of shape it will be in by August. The whole route will be under water in a couple of days.

Anyway, I can't ride that thing. And probably my rode bike won't be fitting if there is lots of debris about. I'll miss being with her but..

I can't commit. Some time I'm filled with anxiety as soon as I commit to something. I don't want to disappoint. I feel everything is weighting on it. I'm too iffy about what could be or not be. Like it might just be 100 degrees. So, it would be very hot riding in the bug infested woods with a burning ass. So, my intuition would not allow me to commit. I hope she understands.

I'll miss her. I wouldn't be able to keep up with her anyway. Maybe she can come by when she gets back. She was planning on going anyway. The woman goes none stop. And could probably lay on sharp rocks and sleep. Me! I'm a very light sleeper. Very hyper vigilant..to a fault.

I wish I were anxiety free and fearless. But, I have found that the supplement S.A.M.E is not only good for muscle and connective tissue, but live and puts you in a good mood. It even states that on the box. I have found that it does take the ledge off of my crazy emotions. I stop worrying about what others may think. I stop worrying about trying to please. Left over emotions from my childhood.

I think I tried very hard to please...to be loved. Yes, conditional love...no leave off the love....just conditional. You would have thought she was the queen of England..she still thinks she is. I don't see her anymore and I'm glad. I don't every want to see her again. Good riddance. I've taken enough abuse. I've been used enough. According to her that was my purpose. She complained heavily if she had to do something for me if there was nothing in it for her. So she made sure everything had a pay off for her in involved.

Anyway, I just alleviate the source of the anxiety.