Nice Person That I Am

I'm giving my ex a lift to the airport tomorrow morning so she can catch a flight to Florida to visit her lover. On Monday, I'll pick her up. Oh, it's nothing, I'm just nice that way!

I'm glad we remain friends after a fifteen year relationship that I broke up. I am so glad that we are still friends. Actually, she is quite happy and is making many friends. Not long ago she thanked me for leaving her; she said I did her a favor. See, she was unhappy too!

When we split I felt that there was something bigger than both of us going on. I felt we needed to part and go on our separate paths; that the time we needed to be together had come to an end.

I'm glad we remain friends. In a way she keeps me grounded just knowing that she is there, in my life. I felt that there was something else that I had to do in life. I had to be there for someone else; I didn't know who at the time! But, the universe was pulling me away.

She was too family orientated and I needed to break away from mine. I had too, I had been to several therapist and written numerous jounals all about my evil mother. The Catholic guilt and social upbringing kept in there. Last fall, I knew I had to break free and leave!

An Angel came down and touched my heart; she was speicial love. She showed me loved and set me on the right path. She was catalyst to change; the change I needed to begin that fall of 2004.

There is something that happens to you when you have time to think about things and soon your feelings change. Before you know it, you'll whole life has changed. Events occurred that changed my life from pushing away loves, families and even moving to another state and falling in love.

I moved and didn't tell my family none of them. And then, I was surprised at how confident I felt about myself to approach this person and tell her how I cared about her. I was truly surprised. I think the universe was and still is guiding me on this journey especially as the holidays approach.

All I ask is that the universe continues to help me. Just stick with me guides; I'm counting on you.