"Fingersmith", the lesbian movie, this evening so for some reason it feels like Saturday. Early today in the morning, I ran five miles to the gym, swam for an hour, then worked out some on the weight machines, then ran the five miles back home. I love swimming....so truly enjoyed myself. The run was good too!
Then when I got back I walked to the nearby market and got chicken soup for my friend who has a bad cold.
My two friends who came to visit me this evening are both getting over colds. They are very sweet and I am so glad that I got to see them this evening. Oh by the way, I'm over the crush. I see things in a different light not. A wiser shade of gold.
I believe that I have gained much wisdom over time and see things more intuitively and more in depth.
I'm hot! I look good and receive compliments a lot. Well, I do work my butt off. It took me four hours today.
Tomorrow, the weather should be pleasant..maybe I should ride my bicycle before the rains come.
I'm tired! I think I'll go to bed..I miss her. I miss holding her and being held in return...she kisses my head...I like that. She cares about me. I know she genuinely cares about me.
I miss her and I won't see her for a few days yet. It's what I am reminded of when I see my two young friends together who are dating. She and I won't have this. They have no baggage and can simply enjoy each other. I am happy for them.....did but will no longer expend the energy to be even a little jealous.
There are plenty of women out there and as simply as these two found each other... I will find someone who can be here for me and me for her. And it will happen when I am ready for it to happen. She and I must be very compatible.
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