My problem ..when it comes to shopping

is that what I buy for you; I buy for me. Yeah, "one for you; one for me" mentality; this is costing me a small fortune!

But, I bought my ex (and one for myself, of course) a cool drawing set. I got a sketch book for her so she can sketch and stir up her creativity.

I am so tired suddenly that I could fall asleep. I wish I were awake in the evenings because evening is when my creative kicks in. I would love to get "my" new two inch thick drawing instruction book out and study it. I wish to draw perfect eyes with the expressiveness I desire.

I can't keep my eyes open...why fight sleep? There is so much I want yet to do yet. I love evenings for sitting around the blazing fire and watching my recorded shows.

Today, I left at 10:00 AM and ran five miles in 40 degree temperature and clouds to "The Heights" where I swam for an hour ( I did 36 laps to make "good" mile. I about had the pool to myself with it being Christmas and all. It was great! Then I worked out for twenty minutes at least..and then I ran five miles back home.

I was hungry when I got home and ate tequila lime chicken wings, baked sweet potato, peas, and cranberry sauce. So good! Three hours later I met my friends in the park and precious friend and I ran about three miles. It went fast..running with her! Later her and her new love came over to visit and watch the "bragging rights" game, MU vs. Ill. We had fun! I'll see them again Thursday evening about 7:30 PM at a Mexican place where we will enjoy a pitcher of margarita's...I love these guys.

I am blessed with wonderful young and young at heart friends...it doesn't get any better than that. Of course, I would love to be in a relationship; but she would have to be just like me, so my young and young at heart friends would love her too.

I have so many wonderful friends and I am becoming very comfortable around them. They don't want to see me hurt and they think that the relationship I had with my "afternoon delight" would only end up in my heart ache. I prefer to find another relationship first.

Am I ready for a relationship. Well, yes, my precious one has learned that to totally give of herself and her time. She they don't see each other - always.

I am so glad that she is happy. She is very precious to me. I have learned to love to see them together because the universe did well by bringing these two together. At first I was a little jealous of what they had but now I'm okay. I'm very okay! My turn will be next. The universe will send someone my way very soon... and this person will pursue me - easily and naturally. Of course, the universe knows how to get it right. The universe can manipulate anything and everyone.

I love my friends! Inadvertently they have taught me how to dress. My one friend in particular has dropped a couple of hints. And I have made good use of them. I think I look hot!

So now only, if they would find me a love. Certainly someone would know of a suitable match for me. Certainly they would! Wouldn't they!

I'm excited about the immediate future; because I know, that something is in the works. I'm excited! She will be just like me! Hey, I'm due!