It's raining this evening..

and I'm feeling very artistic so I plan on sketching more and singing and playing my guitar before I walk to yoga class.

I saw someone I love last night and for a time I had her to myself as we ran together and chatted. She happy in love and I couldn't pick anyone who would be better for her.

She's just precious to me. We had more one-on-one time at my place for a few minutes and it was grand. I'm very fortunate to have her and her love in my life.

She worry about my afternoon delight relationship and are afraid as my other friends that I will fall in love and get hurt..because she won't leave her husband.

Quit frankly, I don't want her to leave her husband. I know my friends are happy in relationships and they only want me to be happy. Funny! I've heard the same things all my life. In my thirties (god I wasted my 20's and 30's! Obvious lesbians were so Butch and not for me and there were no other lesbians) after I broke up with my boyfriend and had no one and my women friends were partnering up with their boyfriends I heard a lot of expressed pity notions. I may be doubling sad because I had no boyfriend and I had no woman. I wanted a woman so bad; it was and is where my heart lies..in the thoughts, arms and heart of another woman.

I love women. I love their softness, their understanding and intuitiveness, their breasts, their femininity. I repel butch! Pardon me but I already have had men..enough of them.. too much of them.

I am almost falling asleep as I type this.. I had six hours of sleep last night because I got to bed at 2:00 AM. Well, I was so wrung ed up from spending time with my dear friends last evening. They are precious!

Well, guess I'll sing and play my guitar. I'll entertain myself with some Christmas carols. Then I want to sketch more. I bought my ex a sketch book of instructions too and a sketch pad. I hope she likes it.

Then, I'll see if yoga class will be going on tonight. I need to do something. I haven't exercised at all today. Normally, I run a total of ten miles, swim a mile and work out for about thirty minutes almost each day. It's raining! So, hopefully, I'll get a run done in the morning.

I have sculpted my body into a work of art. No, I'm not kidding. I look good and I don't want to lose that. Last week I did my run, swim, work-out routine five days and felt wonderful and looked damn good. When I don't work out I use my energy to "eat"! Bad!