Timeless

I think being in love is timeless! I think I'm in love. I can't wait to see her tomorrow evening.

I thank the universe for her, my feelings for her and my many blessings. I trust the universe will bless us and our happiness and keep us safe and together and in love.

I ask the universe to bless all of my friends, keep them safe, healthy (us too) and in love.

I am most grateful.

I wish this damn laptop wouldn't get so damn hot on my lap. Piece of crap! Next one is going to be an Apple computer. I love my iPhone by the way - it's the greatest!

Okay, I'm back! Now tell me why GM doesn't bring back the EV1, once again, like they did in 1998. Did you know other models, Toyota too, had the Rav4 as an all electric car. But, you know the oil men put a stop to that. As long as there is an oil buck to be made - you will see oil powered vehicles. What they tell you is all bull shit. Corporations run this government and this country. It takes millions of dollars to get elected.

I think McCain is truly a bad choice. Can you even imagine that he thought he could run as his own man, with his own thoughts? Shows you how naive he truly is. Bush is a puppet. It's the Republican machine (Cheney) running the show.

Can you imagine Elisabeth of the View going up against Nancy Poloski? Elisabeth get a brain. Oh she defends McCain and thinks the Surge was successful! She's looking for her father. She is naive and believes everything Bush tells her. Oh she was invited to the White House for dinner was Queen Elizabeth was in town. Bush was just using her to win her over and push his agenda. She's easy. Any mature person would look at both sides and make a common sense decision not just be a ditto head.

Goes to show you the mentality of the Rush ditto heads. Some people just do not want to think and make up their own minds so they follow the loudest mouth. Just who do you think is paying Rush?

It's time for bed I'm tired. Good thing we still have freedom of speech.

I wish everyone well and I wonder just where is this economy going to take us? Freddie and Fannie are getting money from you the tax payer to bail them out - yet their CEO's walked off with millions of dollars. I believe 12 and 13 million. Assholes!

Greed is ruining this planet! War is stupid! Why are some men so callous and ignorant and want to mistreat or kill everything.

Good night! Someone should come up with some kind of "spell" or "gas" and makes people love one another and turn their hearts into hearts of gold giving gifts out of love for mankind. Just think how wonderful this world would be! How prosperous. In the long run, does greed really make you any happier.

Okay, I'm done!

Another Chance

I was deceiving she said and maybe "this won't work"! But, I was given another chance and I am so grateful! I should have told her I dated her ex-girlfriend. I just didn't want to talk about it! But she found out. I hurt her. She said she felt deceived.

My spirit guides were helping me, I'm sure.

I only wanted someone to love. Someone available. Someone I could spend the night with - if we wanted to.

And we did. She gave me a second chance. It was wonderful.

I am most grateful! Very loving! Very spiritual!

Now for the ex: I think we will both love her for ever but none ever really got to be with her fully. She occupied too many lives styles and types.

We wanted more. Way back when I think I thought maybe that the ex's should get together. Well, we finally did. The universe worked for us.

She's very loving. She smiles when she makes me happy. She may say she's a loner - but she's no loner. She has a good heart. I'm in love with her.

I just saw her this morning and miss her already. She said she thought of little else - but our getting together the other night. Then she may my deceitful discovery before I had a chance to tell her. I just didn't want to hurt her and I didn't want to dig up the past. The all too recent past. We both well love her for a very long time. I feel bad I can't be there for her. But, I can't!

The time now is for me and her - the ex's

McCain strikes out with woman in crowd

she CNN cuts her off. Yet she makes her point.

McCain is speaking of the war. In my opinion he sticks to war because it's what he knows.

Anyway, little white haired lady get up and says should we get out of a war we got into illegally, falsely and against world support. Something to that effect.

He says something that it was unfortunate we got to Iraq that way, but the "surge" worked.

She comes back saying I respectfully I disagree and that even the leaders want us out of there. He jokes - I know you disagree..then we get cut off by CNN.

See, it takes a gutsy little lady to stand up to the likes of this sleazy politician. We tax payers are not fools and we know our money is being disappropriate. Remember "by the people for the people?" Hello!
This stinking administration is ripping us off at every corner and worse yet allows every corporation under the sun to rip us off. So the jobs are going away and we can't afford our homes anymore. So, whose going to bail us out? Not these idiots!
They prefer to bail out illegal actions of banks with officers who are so stupid that they are ruining themselves and the economy. Greed!

One idiot says if we don't pay CEO such extreme salaries someone else will get them. I say: "So!" That was bullshit anyway. It's a match; a competitive match to see who can get the most perks and the most money. They don't care if the country is ruined or not.

Another chance...

I'm feeling anxious about seeing her this evening. I've sent flowers thinking they would be delivers last evening...but thinking more realistically they will be delivers today..and even more realistically maybe never; maybe I got ripped off. I ordered them on line.

If she gets the flowers I hope it helps. Since I have been with I want to see more of her. She wanted to see me too. Then she found out.

God, I hate to hurt people! Either way someone gets hurts! It hurts me to hurt others.

Wish me the best!

Camaro is nothing new by GM

Same old song in a new ugly attempt at only 26 MPG highway. Not good! GM is still
living in the small brain past! Like I suggested. Bring back the EV1 (see who killed the electric car? DVD)
GM is buried deep in oil and so is this government. Sad thing is it's ruining this country and they don't care.

Then there's the brand spanking new Corvette for 150,000 that gets a mere 20 miles per gallon. But, I guess if you can afford the car; you can afford the gas. At least it's made in the good old USA in Kentucky.

Instead of prosecuting fraudulent banks this government hands them more tax payer's money and without restrictions
and Nancy Pelosi says impeachment options or off the table. Guess she's getting kickbacks too! Well just keep
draining the job market and then see where your bail out tax dollars come from.

Just how stupid are these people? Rick Shenkman asked in his book "Just How Stupid are We?" of the voters. But, I think he needs to write yet another book about the stupidity or rather prehaps "greed" of our nations leader. No, rather the greed of big corporation leaders. Well, I guess Shenkman's got at least another two books he could write.

Memorizing a song a day

I am so tired of having to play from notes. So, today I have decided to memorize a song per day. The words I get. It's the notes that are hold to memorize. But, today I memorized two songs: "Moongold" and "Sea of Love".

So, now I can play cords no matter what instruments - that is if I know where the notes are on that instrument. Hm?

Just had a thought! I should memorized the lead notes too. That way I can play these songs on the saxophone I buy; that is, after I learn where the notes actully are played in relationship to the buttons. Wish me luck!

So there is that! It's time to practice and memorize more. Yes, truly, tomorrow I am driving to a store called Saxquest where you can play various saxophones to see if you match up with one. I want a small one..perhaps that's a tenor saxophone?

Anyway, I'm excited. Hope I can buy on time! Say six months same as cash?

My most desired ambition is to play songs on several different instruments by memory. Because all profesionals play by memory.

What is with this woman next day. I hear her couching all the time - day and night. I mean - like take a pill. Get a life or something. She's not that old. She's alone is what her problem is. If some guy would come along I bet he would cure her cough. It's day and night and wakes me up during the night. I hear her now coughing. It's like Jesus? Take some depressant and knock yourself out!

Why are people so stuck. Here's what I mean. Come on people you all have more power over your lives, thoughs and wishes then what you think!

Get a grip. Not feeling sorry for yourself and be happy. Get out and run, brisk walk, bicycle, swim - do something and not whinning and feeling sorry for yourself. You see you do have control and the power to control and create a more happy existence but instead you sit in front of the TV and eat and feel sorry for yourself.

Exercise rises enphorines and creates happiness. See right there - you can cure yourself too you know.

I have a friend complaining about her aching hip. "Hey, going to doctor so he can fix it". Now this really dicusses me. In my mind I'm suggesting "do yoga". People who do nothing have more aches and pains then people who exercise a lot. It's been proven that exercise makes you happy and confident. Well, pill pushing doctors do not want you to know that - that's for sure! And deep down you know I'm right!

My mother was a pain in the ass like that - she never did anything to help herself. She strived on her own spoken pain and misery and I had to listen to it day after day after day for my whole life! I couldn't stand it anymore. The woman never really wanted to be helped - only noticed I guess. The doctor was suppose to fix her too. God she was a pain in the ass! She dragged everyone down with her - well she tried to. They say misery loves company! I hated that woman.

I'm free now - thank the universe and I take care of myself so gee, therefore, I have no complaints.

Get your ass out and do something positive for yourself in the way of excerise and stop driving everyone nuts complaining all the time. We are sick of hearing you! Is that why people have kids? Especially women. Inwardly I suspect they are jealous of there kids and therefore want to punish their kids. Yes, I think that my diagnoses is correct. It's a common sense diagnoses. Think about it!

Women need to stop sacrificing themselves thinking it's honable - it's not. It's terribly annoying! Get a life! Get a healthy life and leave your kids alone to be happy otherwise you will drive them away.

Interesting day

and this should be one. I had coffee this morning and up all night. I'm talking one cup of coffee. And I feel the beer I had this evening - burning my gut along with the residue of the coffee that lingers.

I have a busy day planned too. Well, my gut woke me up and then I kept hearing the neighbor sneezing. Yes! Like just get up and sit in the living room. When I roam around at night at least I try to be quiet.

Oh, I don't always complain! Stop it! And stop smoking. And don't you wish you already got rid of that gas guzzler? Now you are stuck with it aren't you! You just lost a bundle.

It's all about manipulating the markets and getting off shore drilling on the platter for the already rich bucks. We get 70 percent of our oil from foreign countries and we borrow probably all the money to get it. Nice job!

I'm sick of Bush!

Explore for oil at home is stupid - get into wind, solar, water to generate electricity and bring back the electric car! They just don't want to do it because they are "oil" men. And why do we need more refineries! Stuipd asshole oil men! They must be worth billions with this rising price of oil.

And banks are failing and the government is bailing them out...aren't we stretched thin enough as it is. You know by "government" you mean "we the people" (who get ripped off more and more and more lately). Well, when all the good jobs go away, as they are, to India and every place else...who will generate our "income tax base"? I don't believe the morons in Washington have thought of this. But these guys never think, or plan, ahead - they only "react". That must be the norm for old white bucks. You hit me, I'm hitting you back. They're just stupid!

And what is with the still free for all migration of Mexicans into this country?

I bet you any money - the Republicans will see to it that McCain gets elected. No matter what it takes - they'll see to it! Hell, they swung the 2000 and 2004 elections - why not keep going? They're making big bucks and probably taking that oney and investing it and spending it in Dubai or some place. Before you know it.

China will own us. They already own us. We borrow money from China, to buy foreign oil. So we are helping every economy but our own? Does that make sense?

And us having a presence in every country around the world? Just who do we think we are? We just come in and take over.. much like our forefathers who pushed the native Americans into a small corner and put them on a reservation. Assholes! Who brought slavery to this country and declared them free in 1865 but continued to enslave them. Words are cheap!

They dominate our news and tell us what they want us to hear. For years we were controlled by "fear" now we are controlled by "pricing" and "advertising".

We need socialized health care and we'll never get it. We'll never get it because the corporations do not want it. And we all know corporations run the show - they sure are doing a great job aren't they.

Oh and McCain needs some color - any color. He looks sickly on the side of Obama. Oh, let's see how they "swing" this election. Cause it will get strung.. they are already saying McCain is ahead. Bullshit! Here comes more oil and more war and poverty for most American while a few already rich bucks get greedier and richer yet.

Oh, here's another thing. Read "Our Daily Meds" by Melody Petersen...talk about getting ripped off. "You" are the testing for these drugs - now smile and say hi to the camera - you are making a few people very rich at the cost of your life.

And why do people bury their heads in the sand? When I was getting my oil changed and watching Cheney's talking head - Bush speak, I was the only one watching or even caring what was said. And the stuipid questions the reporters asked. Oh, I guess that was staged.. most of Bush's shit is staged!

But people do not want to face the throught. You know it's like hanging on to your supersized SUV and ignoring the high price of gas while you lose your home and max out several credit cards to maintain your "suggestful" imagine. Oh please.

It's like people who smoke? Usually they have no insurance. And usually, they can't even afford to buy the cigarettes yet pay for a respirator. It's like wake up!

And the cry babies! Guess the Greatest generation overly spoiled their kids. But now those "baby boomers" are getting their's I guess. They are left raising grandchildren because they wanted to make sure their kids had "high self-esteem" so they spoiled the hell out of them.

But now every kid is on drugs for mental or physical reasons. Hey, the drug companies are getting more rich. It's all for money you know? Yes, get the kid on drugs and keep them on money-making drugs for the rest of their lives. Brilliant marketing. Just like commericals suggesting to you - that you have this disease and you do need this drug.

GM is cutting back

on CEO and white collar bonuses! And cutting salaried retires health care. Not good! Insurance is expensive. GM needs to get some guts and go against Cheney's oilmen and bring back the EV1. Yes, bring back the electric car and make them reliable and cheap! Sell by quality and volume! Why can't these old white bucks get their heads in the right place for a change. Yes, "change" you morons! Go green and stop dicking us around with stupid phony promises of more fuel efficent.

As the guy says on TV. We do have the technology for more fuel efficiency. They do say the public is buying more efficent cars. But "old white oil bucks" politics in Washington is pro - gas!

Within five years - that's bull shit! We could have had the EV1 today..but Bush and the rest of the oil men had GM crush them!

Don't believe me? See the documentary "Who Killed the Electric Car?" Let's get on board and get the old oil crap out and green in. We have the technology. I'm sick of Bush giving us bullshit speeches about how it's the public fault. No people! It's "let industry and corporations run amok - Bush administration's fault!

"They" want drill off shore..so they are rising the oil prices to put the squeeze on. It's all manipulated by a few rich old white men. The horrible Catholic church and Christian faith did the same thing too...manipulate people.

Seems white men like to throw their weight around. Just look at history in this country. I recently saw the Lee and Grant exhibit. Kill, kill, kill! It's all these people know - keep slavery. Lee beat his slaves - disrobed and beat a woman slave. Asshole! I hate men! Their fuck heads! Domineering, preaching, bossing - know it alls! I grew up with abusive assholes!

Who commits the most crimes? Who starts the wars for profit? Who is filled with greed? Who cares less about the life of others if it gets in the way of them getting what they want?

So think about it? We need more women in higher places and women need to stop trying to fit in with the old white bucks and think for themselves and turn this mess of humankind around. It's embarrassing! This is the 21st century and we are still carrying on like barbaric idiots!

The Clinton's Never Quit on CNN

more than four out of ten Democrats wish Hillary was the candidate. Eighteen million people voted for Hillary. So, don't write then off. Carol Bernstein wrote in "Woman in Charge" that Hillary as a consistency has many constituants. She raised 209 million in her candidacy. She came into a whisper of winning.

Paul Begala is a former Clinton advisor. Hillary won 20 primaries. Bill Clinton is the only Democratic president to win two terms.

Obama needs more money to sustain a 50 state win over McCain. David Gergen, Senior Political Anaylist, says Obama cannot afford to insult them in anyway. The Clintons are too big! Gergen says he believed that Hillary deserved to win. Bill Clinton led us to the era of our greatest prosperity in the world.

Forty percent of Hillary's susporter said they will vote for McCain or stay at home on election day. Obama has to cater to the Clintons. You can't throw the Clinton's overboard.

Biggest star in the Senate is Hillary. Obama needs her. He can't try to go around her, he needs her. She's important to the Democratic re-elections in the house and Senate.

James Carville, Democratic Strategist says Bill Clinton might have gotten a little too involved. Bill Clinton was supposed to be the extra draw, but sometimes he could have been a debriment. He was a guy trying to protect his wife. Hillary did a fine job defining herself.

Bill Clinton makes it very clear that he believes that Obama is an empty suit say Carl Bernstein, author. Bill Clinton is behind Obama now.

I'm watching "The Clintons Never Quit" on CNN.

Missouri is ranked number one in cases of

communicable diseases of gonorrhea, chlamydia, and #5 in syphilis and HIV nationally. Teen pregnancy is rated 150 percent of the national average.

Then there is soon-to-be-gone (thank god)Governor Matt Blunt who signed HB 1055 in July of 2007, a house billing "barring" educators from Planned Parenthood or any other group affiliated with abortion providers from circulating materials related to sex education. The law also removed the requirement that school should teach sexual education that is comprehensive and both medically and factually accurate. Instead he allows schools to teach according to "federal" (meaning Christian) abstinence-only standards. The law also established alternatives to abortion service programs. The total funding was $1.9 million this year. Of course Blunt received praised from pro-life groups.

I think they think if they talk about sex and diseases that kids will go out there and try it! Well, girls are getting pregnant anyway. And one in four teenage girls between the ages of 14 and 19 has a sexually transmitted disease. One in five has human papilloma virus, and despite the $1.5 billion spent on abstinence-only-until-marriage education (kids laugh at that shit!), about half of all teens are sexually active.

The pro-lifers link any family planning with abortion (they live under a rock!) and are out of touch with reality.

Christian so called "protecting" teens from information is immortal and certainly not working.

Religion is so sick! The government supports pro-life, now that's a joke. Evidently killing to get into and stay in a needless war for oil is okay? A war for oil that is draining and ruining this economy and putting us into near third world financial status! This administration has done a great job supporting other countries' economies and ignoring out own.

Now there is T. Boone Picket a Texas oil billionaire who is supporting and bringing wind, water, and solar power to us nationwide. Finally! I guess Picket is getting out of oil while the getting is good. He who moves first and fastest will get the jump on "Green" money to be made! He needs to get GM to bring back the electric car too. This present administration lead by Cheney is the worse I have ever witnessed.

And Cheney is the most arrogant son of a bitch I've ever seen. Talk about thinking he's hot shit. He said Congress would never pass the Medicare bill that allows doctors to get more money. Cheney wants them to get less. Well, chemo battened Ted Kennedy walked into Congress with Carolyn and his wife and both sides of the aisle applauded for five minutes. He voted in favor of doctor getting the money. Cheney had said it would be vetoed. Well, now it can't be vetoed because there was enough votes in favor. So there - Cheney. I can't wait until he's gone. Bush is basically just a puppet in the Cheney show. It's the American citizens network cancelled the show due to lack of popularity.

Ingrid Betancourt released after six years

captive in Columba jungle. I'm watching Larry King and trying to find out how she got captured. Was there a plane crash?

Her children are grown now. A son and daughter. They are higher spiritual beings. She's back in Paris and is French.

Six years ago she told her pre-captives "No more kidnappings". They didn't listen.

February 23, 2002, on the day she was taken. She was in her presidential campaign and she wanted to go Samisendi because the people there were major supporters. They offered her space for negotiations so the peace talks could go on between her group and the government. After the peace talks there was retaliation. She was grabbed going there and held captive for six years. She was a presidential candidate at the time. She thought their objective was to kill her. She was surprised she lived. Clara Rohouse her vice presidential candidate at the time was freed before her. I think early on.

Horrors she experienced? "Some things have to be left in the jungle". She replies.
Her worse thing was realizing human beings can be so horrible to other human beings. She was in the jungle the whole time and they moved her around a lot. You never know what's going to happen to you. There were other captives there with her and they feel like family and she is so glad they are all out. She feels very fortunate to be free.

She tried to escape at one point and even got the jump on those holding her captive.

Her children were her reason for living, she was desperate to see them again. She was in Bogata. She had bug bits for over six years. It was hell for mind, body and soul. All were physically and mentally tortured. There were no medical services provided.

She was the only woman with other men. No privacy. She tried to escape and thought she was lucky not to die. They got out of the camp and then incredible things happened to them. At the end her companion was ill with diabetes. They had to choose between going on or he losing his life.

She feels on another planet now. She feels distance from that life and this life now. She doesn't want to forget but she wants to forgive. She was punished for the escape attempt. And said it was horrible and will not talk to Larry King about it. She didn't see anyone else killed.

On the rescue day they took of chains and they had to pack. And they waited all morning. There was a helicopter coming with international commission. They thought that the captives would be taken in helicopter to another place and talk to a higher commander. They didn't know what to expect. The helicopter landed with five guys and a woman. They didn't match watch they were expecting. Their Spanish had a strange accent. Their keeper was very cruel. The guy in the helicopter hugged her captor so they knew there was no release there. Because they appeared as friends and there was a camera. She thought she was just be recorded and moved and she was very depressed and some of her companions were angered. All captors were armed and they wanted to handcuff them as they got into the helicopters.

Then the guy, the leader, in the plane was full of energy and said "This is the Colombian army and you are free now".

Through all of it, she never lost her faith and feels god was with her the whole time. And she prays everyday. She prays they all are free. The helicopter ride was so long and she was afraid the helicopter would crash. The ride was only three minutes.

She doesn't like the word politician. She feels it's negative. She wants to be available and it doesn't mean that she wants to run for office again. She is not saying it won't happen. But it's not the same now. She has changed in the way to relates to people and how she reacts to things. Her goals in life have changed. What remains is her desire to help other. She could hear her mother's voice on the radio each day. Her mother was fine. It was as if time didn't touch her mother.

The end of the interview and the Larry King Show.

Gotta hustle

Well, if I'm going to ride my bike to the park to meet up with the running group I've got to change and pack my running clothes and shoes in my backpack.. And leave. And pray. It's "rush" hour you know. These people out there are idiots!

And it's hot! Art group was good today. I tried hupastel, charcoal pencil and a drawing with ink. I came home and framed one of them.

Before art group I swam for fifty minutes and worked out about 20 minutes on weight machines before I had to go to get a good place in the art room. We have a pretty good size turnout, usually around 15 people.

In two weeks, my favorite model Annie will be modeling and right after that Mary. I love them both. God, for three hours...I'm.. well you know - I'm a lesbian and they're hot! They are older hot women. I perfer older woman.

Don't know if I can wait until Tuesday when I see M. I'm dying here. It'll be two weeks come Tuesday. It drives me insane. Hey, all healthy active older women want sex...you are healthy and active and don't maybe you should trade him in for a woman if you are a woman. In art class the women carry on more over women than they do men.

I think that is why idiot Christians (they have to ruin it for everyone - anything pleasureable. I hate them) commend same sex sex. There is nothing wrong with pleasuring or loving someone. It's only the fucking church that screws it up for everyone! That subsequence social and family pressure.

How many older women do you really think enjoy sex with their husbands? Ugh!

I recently saw on TV where older couples wrote a book on how to keep your marriage loving. These guys would make me puke! How stupid sickening are they! I bet you any money he gets on her nerves!

Where it all going to end?

The stock market sucks! I thought with oil going down $9.00 per barrel it would begin to rebound just a tad. I was wrong!

Ted Kennedy came in to work today at the Senate to vote for keeping doctors' fee included in Medicare. Man you have to watch these asshole Republicans every minute. They think nothing of falsely starting a war and spending billions on it. Or spending billions on foreign oil when they could have developed more "green" fuels in this country with solar, wind, and water and are so easily renewable! Just a bunch of asshole old men filled with greed. I see finally where one; however, an oil man named T. Boone Pickins has billions of dollars he will invest in "wind" energy in Texas.

Well, if any of these old bucks had any brains and weren't so stubborn they would let lose of some of the oil billions and invest in the electric cars, solar and wind and water power and more Ethanol. Hey, people, see "Who Killed the Electric Car?" the documentary. GM in the late 90's by demand from California government built the EV1 at the Saturn plant and people loved it. But, then oil men saw that it was popular and literally crushed them all. Hint number one - you could only lease them. In other words they had no intentions of ever selling them to people. Assholes! If GM wants to get out of the red they are in now they would use their selfish little oil soaked brains and bring back the EV1 and not charge an arm and leg for it either. And where are "green" government incentives and tax breaks? No where to be found.

Why in the world are we giving billions of dollars to the Middle East for oil? Screw them! And what is worse - we are borrowing those billions (now trillions) from China to pay for the oil we buy from the Middle East. Talk about poor management! Just too stupid are these people in Washington.

For one thing people in Washington are stupid to allow over 30,000 lobbyist in there to influence their actions. The FDA is ran by private industry practically. And allows drug companies to test drug directly on people. Drug companies abuse patients yet Washington goes without enforcing penalties and restrictions. Washington has been bought by all the Lobbyist. Washington has been bought, lock, stock and barrel by big business. Yes, Washington can be bought! Before the mid 1970's there were no lobbyist in Washington. Well, maybe a few for government contracts; but now, it' ridiculous. Big business runs Washington and Washington allows big business to run amok without safety regulations or concerns for the welfare of the people of this country.

Hey, it's government for the people by the people. Not government bought and ran by large corporations.

Drug companies buy doctors to promote their drugs and doctors freely over medicate their patients and over prescribed drug to cover up side affects of other drugs.

Insurance companies try to cheat us at every turn. We can't trust anyone, not corporations or the government. We have no one looking out for us!

And why are Mexican allowed to roam free in this country illegally? It's not fair to all the others who come here legally! There are 20 millions illegal Mexicans taking jobs away from legal immigrants. What's the deal with that. Why are Mexicans exempt from ruling the immigrant rules? Whose kissing Bush ass there? Or is it because we are in debt to Mexico too?

We are so stupid here. If the Middle East decided to cut off our oil supply and if China defaulted on their 14 trillion dollars of loans to us and demanded their money right now - we would be ruined!

The housing market mess can be blamed on crooked lenders and corporations who sneaked in worthless loans into bond deals. Why are these people not prosecuted and thrown in jail - no we bail them out! This is the worst administration I had ever witnessed. What a bunch of crooks!

So it appears that the big shot CEO's of large corporations are out to drain every tax cent and every dime American workers have to work three jobs to earn to try to keep up with the ever rising cost of living.

Now that gas is so high everything reflects that increase in the way of pricing. Items in the grocery stores are priced way beyond our wildest imaginations.

So where is it all going to end. If Obama gets elected they will squash him in Washington. Big business won't allow the lights of goody too shoes Obama to get into their way. I think the Republicans will pull another fast one like they did in 2000. They were very eager to get to the Middle East.. nothing was going to stop them.

So, the way I see it. There is absolutely no one in Washington looking out for "our" interest. And with more and more jobs going away there goes the income tax base. Large corporations have literally drained us. We support other countries and we make rich men more rich. Bunch of assholes!

One greedy son of a bitch was being interviewed by the woman, the one totem woman on "60 Minutes" and he bragged and showed off his six million dollar yacht. Funny you saw no people on it. The guy should have been embarrassed for with that money he could have bought food and build schools for millions of poor, abused kids, starving kids.

Are these rich men even human?

deep trouble

well we should have all seen it coming. Salaries and the number of jobs not keeping up with the rising cost of living. Housing priced out of this world. I oftened wondered who was buying those huge expensive homes. Now I know! And bought with "creative financing". Meaning people were rushed into signing loan contracts when it was douthful they would be able to make the payment in two years when the loan amount ballooned. Pay scales were not increasing high enough if at all.

I believe greedy CEO mentality has finally drained this economy dry. I can't afford to date. And there is no way I can afford the high cost of having a pet. So everyone suffers!

Greed! It all boils down to almighty greed!

I'm Speechless for a change

No, I have nothing to talk about, to complain about. It's a beautiful evening. I'm chilling with the windows open and watching "Hairspray".

I sang and played my guitar earlier - I love it. It brings me peace. I went to Linda's last evening for BBQ with four other women there. They saw my guitar in the back of my car. One women really wanted me to play. I should have. But I was already into the margaritas I guess and the triple sac scratches my throat. I should have drank water. Well, it was the first time there with them, so trying to be socialible. But, I think I am so much better anywhere without booze.

Next time I'm taking it and singing and playing. Hey, I can really entertain myself so maybe I can entertain someone else. Lou, my ex, likes to hear me sing. Thank god! She's my best, most honest critic. I need that! I need her in my life. So, I pray she and her partner have a safe trip with holiday weekend visiting her in-laws. Sandra went along and I'm glad.

I miss the good doctor. I was just thinking how Sandra saw her and she asked about me and Lou. "She was concerned". Sandra reported. I was lifted off the ground by five feet at least. I floated on that thought all day and more. I will love that woman forever. My own personal angel - she healed my heart probably when she thought she couldn't help me at all.

Life is magical. I love magical moments. I want tomorrow to be very magical! Well, I'm invited to a party - guess I'll go. Right now I'm tired and so enjoying my alone time. Social events are trying to me. Who else just recently said that? Oh, I know Ashley. She and I were riding the other day. I like her. She thinks like me. She does - actually. For the age difference we think a lot alike. Oh she's only 33 years younger than I am. We are great friends. She has a good head on her shoulders. She's practical. She has a great partner too.

Me, where's my partner? The universe only knows. Ezekiel, Edy, and Gorgette my soul spirits on the other side! They control my life - like I have a say! They pulled me away from Lou and put me on the M road.

Things are becoming rather convuluted. If my new friends find out - I'm toast! So, where is this all going to go? I like my new friends. I have five new friends. I have fun last night. I hope to see more of them. Well, they are trying to fix me up with Linda. I hope all ends up very well! I don't want anyone to get hurt.

So, where is this all going to go? Stay tuned! Wish me luck! Make it magical. Whenever I ask for a magical day - it turns out fantastic!

This I'll draw something now! I'm getting my second wind. I got home late last night. Thanks for helping me find my way home!

I rode my bike to the park to meet up with the running group. Then I ran with a very nice woman. Who of course, has a partner. That's okay! Maybe I need all this freedom right now.

I have a loving heart and I'm glad. I can fall in love in a New York second. Two weeks ago I fell in love with the model I drew for three hours. She was about my age. Nice body! Very nice! If they weren't real - someone did a very nice job. She was sensative. I love women who let me who they are. Who tell me what makes them tick! Pour out some heart and I'll fall in love with it. Anyway. It's not happening with Linda, because she too surface. She doesn't show me any soul. She's M's X. Now M, has some soul! She loves me. She kisses my head when she loves me. The good doctor kissed my gently too... I'll love her forever. Oh, she felt my pain. I know! Anyway!

I fall in love to easily - I fall in love to fast! I have to stop typing now because this idiot laptop is making me sweat! I see a MAC in my future!

Damn this laptop is hot and slow

I think I will never buy another PC Windows ran ever again! There is a MAC in my future just like my Iphone! My Iphone makes this PC look like ancient junk. I have a Compaq Presario - Guess I got it three years ago. I have absolutely nothing on it. I defrag it, I stripe it of everything and it's still slow as can be.

This spy ware crap is discusting and slows it down. Trust me I have nothing on this PC. I main use it for email and it's it because its to slow. Or I blog to complain about the piece of shit. I'm signing off because I just took a shower and now I'm sweating using this piece of crap!

I'll use my iPhone to make an entry! Screw this thing!

Not a warm fuzzy feeling about out government!

Either these guys running the show are stupid are so greedy they are playing "Enron" and will drain everyone then move on.

Seems the crooks never get prosecuted and therefore perpetuate. Well, when you have a crooked government that cheats to get in the white house and into war what do you expect. They surely did not set a good example therefore we have the likes of Enron multiplied by thousands. Crooked!

Of course the government will not set regulations and prosecute white collar wrong doings because they are all in cahoots!

Drug companies lie and rip us off at every turn. Oil mongers lie and rip us off at every turn. American auto has been crooked and dictating, ran by oil men, from the get go! They build gas guzzlers in a time when we should be conserving energy and turning our sights toward alternative fuels like ethanol, wind, air, water. Have we learned how to make plastics from other materials, or other oils? No! Because this greedy, oil government doesn't care about tomorrow. Hell, they can take all of there profits and move to Dubai. Seems to be the place everyone wants to go. The home of the first world's tallest, moving building, where each floor floats and the building, swirls, and is redesigned every few minutes, or hours.

So, where is this going to end? Will government yet bail out another cheating financial institution at our expense - our tax dollars at work. The wrong doers never get prosecuted only bailed out and of course the head man has a scapegoat to take the heat!

We created reasons to go to war with Iraq and we'll have Israel create a reason to go to war with Iran and leave Obama with the mess of cleaning up after rip off, cheats, Republicans get out of office. They must think the American public is totally stupid - well afraid to admit most of them are. People turn a blind eye and a deaf ear when it comes to anyone even hinting at the truth as to how this government really works - how in cahoots they are with big business to cheat the American public.

Bush killed the Electric car in California, between 1999 and 2002 when the last EV1 was crushed. Gee Bushy boy you could leave office a hero if you got some balls and had GM return the electric car. They would sell like hot cakes and GM would get out of the red. But, greedy, once again- greedy, oil men won't have it. They are running the show and mostly from Washington. Follow the money - people!

Where hope you all have fun while the doe lasted caused it gone now - Washington has seen to it! They don't give a shit about you - they're out for the money to fill their own pockets. If this administration cared about us.. they would stop drug companies from selling drugs to hide symptoms caused by other drugs.

Insurance companies deny, deny, deny, because they want your money - they don't want to help you out in return. Just how sick is that? So where's the regulating government to make sure we are safe and sound.

Speaking of safe and sound, border security - what a joke! It's a free for all!

Let's have some more savings and loan, and lenders fraud and greed - that goes un-punished. Because government and companies are in cahoots and a blind eye is turned.

So, geniouses of big shot businesses what are you doing to do when everyone is so poor they can't buy your China junk? Or your American auto junk. And government can't bail you out - because the "almighty" tax payers doesn't have a single job to be found. Right now it takes someone working 24 hours at minimum or up to $10.00 (going rate) an house jobs to even try to make ends meet.

Yet, we have the Buffets of the world spending millions of dollars on stupid boats to impress their friends - why? Feed a country for a whole year. See that Americans have decent paying jobs to meet the fast rising cost of living - before we all go bust. Frankly, it serves government right. Drain us and see what you get - nothing! We can't buy your crap if we don't have decent paying jobs. No jobs no paying taxes! There you corporations just screws yourself because of all your greed. Hope your proud of youselves!

This country could be rich if we went green and conserved, bring back the electric car - yeah for once be a man about it and do your job!

Give incentives to companies to create air, water, and electric power! I hear nothing about incentives to go green. But, I hear you can get up to a 100,000 rebate if you are a business and buy at big ass super sized, gas guzzling hummer or other SUV piece of junk that runs of testoserone oil products. Morons! The government is making an ass out of the average Joe and they are too stupid to even know it! Men ride on their own egos - need I say more - suckers!