"Well I'll Be Damn"

"Well, I'll be damn".

Read May 30th and see why! I left my life up to the universe and my spirit guides have made major changes since last fall. Think it and create it! Plan your day and watch it happen! If you haven't watched "What the Bleep Do We Know?" then do yourself a huge favor and watch it - over and over again; for it takes many times to pick up on the messages that are there. Remember to dream and think positive thoughts and watch the universe make changes to accomodate your wishes. You must believe it to make it happen!

Yes, dreams do come true and I believe nothing in our life occurs by accident. Everything happens for a reason; funny how in retrospect I can see that now. Longing and dreaming creates change.

I found it and know that love is a gift. She is very special and what I have dreamed of for a very long time. In therapy I learned that I tend to fall for personality types similar to my mother's. Although I could not stand her, I gravitated to loves of the same type. How odd is that? I was dying inside and wasting my life believing I needed to turn myself over to and do the bidding of others in order to be rewarded with love. Love is conditional, was the message I received from my mother.

Now love is unconditional! Now for however long she'll have me, I have the compassion, desire and sweetness I need to fill my heart with love. The emptiness is gone; the longing is gone. No longer just an empty shell I feel human again.

And this human needs to get busy, especially if I are planning on moving soon in about fifteen days. I am journaling but I need to be working; funny how I can find everything to do but what I truly need to be focused on. I am stalling; I need to be de-junking, good-willing and pitching abundant unused articles to get ready for my journey to my new life.

My universe is in motion and the wheels are turning. I have had many changes in my life since last fall. The emptiness which had resided in my heart for many years is no longer there. I have disgarded the negative and clung to the positive. Life is full of love! Thank you God!

Monday June 6, 2005

I guess I am waiting for the "thunder" to pass because there sure isn't any rain with this storm; well not in IL anyway. It's bone dry here. I need to run errands. I pray this condo buying and selling goes smoothly; now that the wheels are in motion!

I saw a wonderful quote posted near a carousel yesterday. It goes something like this: "The ride may take only minutes but the memories can last many lifetimes" I love and believe that! Life lessons stay with us from one lifetime to the another. God, I hope I make this lifetime memorable - I think I still have time to do that.

I'm glad your home SD - whomever you might have rushed back for is very lucky! God love ya! Sorry you had editing problems but I love that "aw -crap!" - too cute!

Today on TV I saw Madonna, a 72 yr. old nun who does "ironman" events! I was amazed. She can ride 111 miles on a bike in one day, then run a marathon (yes, 26.2 miles) and then swim 2.6 miles. What an inspiration and she started doing all this at age 52. I am so amazed and filled with hope and inspiration.

Sunday June 5, 2005

Hey you driving 80 in SD I am so happy to be updated. I miss you. I for one would enjoy it and your company.

No trophies were won by the out-of-breath, tired and sweating three. It must have been 88F/88H this morning. If I would not have had my GPS I would have thought that the route distance was miscalculated.

I made a major decision Saturday and I am moving to MO. The light went on in my head and I got that special "go for it" gut feeling that I had been waiting for. Anyway closing is July 15th. Yes! I am excited! It is a another condo only smaller, cozy and best of all centrally located! Yes!

So cool to hear from you SD!!!!!