Two years ago..

I didn't play golf, I didn't sing and play guitar, I didn't do yoga, I didn't swim, I didn't run a half marathon and I didn't have absolutely wonderful sex on a regular basis. Two years ago I wore glasses regularly, now I only wear them for night driving. Two years ago I wasn't this young looking and fit. I'm getting younger and better all the time. Two years ago I lived in another state. I've been a free spirit for two years. Two years ago I did't sketch as well as I do now. Two years ago I never sketched a live model. Two years ago I never had the chance to dance the swing. Two years ago I didn't live in this state! Two years ago I didn't think that all the power lies within myself that I am capable of creating and living my dreams. Two years ago I never asked for a woman to love me..now I expect her too and to meet me half way. In my dreams when I make my plans she meets me half way.

Did I die? No, I'm alive and I'm in love with life! I love my condo! I love my friends. I am very grateful for all of my blessings of good friends and lots of love in my life. I am grateful for my good health, pain free, injury free, accident free, active and healthy life. I thank the universe for my friends too in case they forget to be grateful. I pray my friends and myself remain healthy, happy, injury free, pain free and loved.

So, today I am a totally different person; I'm a better person. I'm growing in mind, body and spirit. It's so wonderful to love and make love and have the same returned.

Life is grand. I'm happy in this life and can't wait to die and move on to my exit adventure, my new life.

I've forgotten my childhood. I left the people who reminded me of the unhappiness, sadness and lovelessness. I'm so free! I hope I never see them again! May they all rest in peace...just leave me to be.. happy! I am so happy! And I deserve to be happy! Life need not be one of horrible Catholic rules and negativity. Life is meant to be loved, have love and to grow in spirit.

I'm free at last!