Lay her across the bed

I feel as if I've had the air kicked out of me today. I'm depressed. Now you would think that the little 22 year old Canadian blonde writing me would take care of that, but that doesn't even work today.

Yeah, she smiled at me yesterday online - lesbian one. I returned with how pretty she was. Adorable, I said. Beautiful eyes, long blonde hair. Very pretty. I said you made my day; but you are "very young" and adorable....now go away!

Well, she was back today saying at 12 people thought she was in her 20's. At 17 she was intimate with a 43 year old; then later a 53 year old.

She said she loved my face. She not a real member so can only respond to my emails.

I'm thinking "entrapment". She is studying to be a lawyer in Montreal. Just what is the legal age in Montreal. And "is" 22 her real age. And what's her alterior motive; monetary gain? Am I the brunt of a joke, a bet?

To say the lease, it's at lease distracting from my other heartaches. I really wanted to meet up with Kim, this last woman..but after two meeting with another, she's in love. It was a tearful blow to my heart when I read the email. This is my second such incident within a month...I'm batting a thousand.

Will, I fell in love with b-boop 05SL at first sight(ing) last year (like a ufo). I'm just kidding! I love her to pieces, even still. If I see her in the park in a couple weeks I am going to have to hold her close to my heart..just for a second. I miss her. I miss holding her. She definitely does not feel the same way..she couldn't get out of here and onto another fast enough. Didn't even blink an eye! Even though towards the end we couldn't put two descent words together, much less form sentences. Or, even try to think of something to say or talk about. There was just something about her... you know you just can't question the why and where-fors about love all the time. We all have our missions and our purposes. Our spirits check in at different stages with defiinite missions to fulfill at the beginning of each lifetime. It's just other humans, society, the government, the church and work...gets in the way.

When and if I run into 05SL (I hope she is with C, otherwise, I am going to want to take her home with me and lay her across the bed and I'm not kidding! I wish her all the best...she taught me how to live again, to love and be filled with passion.

I know it's because I have time to dream, I'm healthy because I'm very active, and that is why I have sexual drive. I'm not on meds either.

You know! You can let "yourself go" in your 30's, but live it up, because after that you better get active to stay healthy. I hear smokers coughing already in mid thirties and complaining about get bronchious all the time, then and now...people just don't see the light bulb do they! Oh they may be intelligent as hell, but you must be pretty stupid to be smoking...in today's world. As a society are we not making much progress here? What the hell, takes so long. There should be hybrides calore on the streets, world peace and opening gay couples with or without children strolling the boulevard arm in arm. Come on we are smarter than that, aren't we...evolution should speed up as we gain knowledge through the years.

Now, today, it's all about non-renewable OIL. It's come down to a game. Now China needs more because more westernization of fast foods and automobiles and yes of course, ill health - too many burgers.. and too sedentary of a lifestyle.

Guitar is calling me....